Bit of a whine here, feel free to pass...
Can't sleep right now. I'd put myself back on Zoloft after getting out of the hospital the last time after 3 huge crying fits and one panic attack. When I got back home, I took myself off of it.
This morning, after having problems with some bleeding from my incision, I started it up again. A few hours ago I cleaned out the wound again and got some weird pain because of how things are connected, so I took a Vicodin to kill the pain and calm myself down.
Well, it killed the pain, anyways...
I figure I'll sit up for a bit, try to get my brain to shut the fuck up. Otherwise, I guess more drugs.
**How can you care?** 'Because I choose to.' **You make it sound so simple.** 'That's because it is simple. Hard sometimes, but simple.'
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Monday, November 28, 2005
Friday, November 25, 2005
Water - Dominant
You are a very
mellow person and just seem to flow from one
thing to another so easily... You have many
talents and succeed in most things you try...
Your moods seem to constantly change... You
long to be free and hate to be
caged...
Animagi form:
Mermaid
Most compatible with:
Elecricity
Least compatible
with: Earth
Song: The
Great Beyond - R.E.M
Ruling
God: Poesidon
Are you an Obscure or Dominant Element?? {Great pics}
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
One area starts to get better, so another area starts to swell.
Yes, another infection seems to be starting under the old scar. Yes, I just saw the surgeon yesterday. No, I am not going to call him, I'd rather not spend Thanksgiving in the hospital, thank you very much.
I'll just wait for it to pop and drain, then clean it out like everything else.
Yes, another infection seems to be starting under the old scar. Yes, I just saw the surgeon yesterday. No, I am not going to call him, I'd rather not spend Thanksgiving in the hospital, thank you very much.
I'll just wait for it to pop and drain, then clean it out like everything else.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
Quite possibly one of the coolest things on the web since grape gum
Me
Had to do Sephiroth, sorry. ;-)
Me
Had to do Sephiroth, sorry. ;-)
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
*slurping a peanut butter fudge shake from Sonic* Ah, the best part of being on a liquid diet. ;-)
Anyways, got a bunch of EOB's from the insurance company. After three hospital stays, I have FINALLY hit the $2,500 deductable.
No, we won't go there...
Hey, Tish, on the third try, the manage to get the IV in and it DIDN'T infiltrate!
Anyways, I'll be heading to Mom and Dad's house soon.
Thanks for everything, ya'll.
Anyways, got a bunch of EOB's from the insurance company. After three hospital stays, I have FINALLY hit the $2,500 deductable.
No, we won't go there...
Hey, Tish, on the third try, the manage to get the IV in and it DIDN'T infiltrate!
Anyways, I'll be heading to Mom and Dad's house soon.
Thanks for everything, ya'll.
Well, I managed to dodge the major surgery bullet. Turns out that the infection was because the previous incision had closed too quickly, and something in there got bad. I'll be heading home as soon as the nurse tracks down the doctor to get the orders.
I won't be back to work right away, there is a drain in my pouch to keep the pressure off. Maybe Monday, I don't know. My paycheck will be short a couple of days, I'll just have to manage somehow.
I won't be back to work right away, there is a drain in my pouch to keep the pressure off. Maybe Monday, I don't know. My paycheck will be short a couple of days, I'll just have to manage somehow.
Monday, November 07, 2005
OK.
More surgery.
Probably major surgery. The pouch's collar seems to be complete toast, which means a conversion to a standard colostomy. He won't know for 100% sure until he gets in there in a couple of hours, but we're pretty sure.
So, no more tight jeans (sorry, guys). No more tight anything.
It would mean I could eat more like a normal person again. I miss my salads, corn, etc.
I'll write more when I can. I told my boss that I could, technically, be out for 4 - 6 weeks (yes, weeks), so I'm begging him for a work laptop so I don't lose my job. Wouldn't that suck...
More surgery.
Probably major surgery. The pouch's collar seems to be complete toast, which means a conversion to a standard colostomy. He won't know for 100% sure until he gets in there in a couple of hours, but we're pretty sure.
So, no more tight jeans (sorry, guys). No more tight anything.
It would mean I could eat more like a normal person again. I miss my salads, corn, etc.
I'll write more when I can. I told my boss that I could, technically, be out for 4 - 6 weeks (yes, weeks), so I'm begging him for a work laptop so I don't lose my job. Wouldn't that suck...
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Saturday, November 05, 2005
I'm learning, albeit about 15 years too late, that I don't have to sacrifice myself for others.
I wonder, if I had learned it then, when ****** was sexually abusing me and I didn't tell my mother for fear of angering her, if things might have been different.
I simply don't have the strength anymore to turn myself off so that someone else feels better.
I think that's a good thing.
I wonder, if I had learned it then, when ****** was sexually abusing me and I didn't tell my mother for fear of angering her, if things might have been different.
I simply don't have the strength anymore to turn myself off so that someone else feels better.
I think that's a good thing.
Friday, November 04, 2005
Rage issues the last 24 hours, and I don't know why. Got seriously pissed off at one friend, snapped at another one in an email this morning, and now I'm contemplating death and Meteors for a co-worker.
If I had time to take off, I'd do it and go play Diablo II or other kill games until I felt better.
If I had time to take off, I'd do it and go play Diablo II or other kill games until I felt better.
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