**How can you care?** 'Because I choose to.' **You make it sound so simple.** 'That's because it is simple. Hard sometimes, but simple.'

Thursday, September 29, 2005

black cat
You are a black cat, stubborn yet friendly, you
stick to your values and preferences, and no
one can convince you otherwise! You are the
legendary cat of mystery.

What color of cat are you?
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We had a black cat, her name was Merlyn. She died... wow, has it been over 5 years? Something like that. She was 13 at the time, and the cancer that didn't get her the first time got her the second, poor thing. She was definitely Dad's cat.
Never thought you'd headbang to "One Winged Angel"?

Guess again. ;-)
I'm doing a good bit better. The swelling and redness is way down from yesterday.

And Goldeneye's vet gave me some drops to put in his ears, and there's already some improvement. He's not been digging in them at all.

And squeeing fan girl moment... Uematsu-sensei is so fucking awesome oh my god the Advent Children soundtrack shriek!!!1111


OK, now that I've gotten that out my system... Wow. Just wow. This is an incredible collection of music, completely new and fresh and unlike most of his previous stuff.

Dave, bear with me another day or two, I'm'a re-do your game music CD to include a couple of these tracks.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

I'm home, on Augmenten 3 times a day for the next 10 days. We think we've caught it in time.
Off to a doctor.

Hope I'll be back soon.
Yup, the infection's back.


Calling the doctor in an hour, seeing if we can drain it instead of hospitalization.

Also, Goldeneye has an ear infection and needs to get to the vet. Calling him in an hour, too.


Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Running a fever.

Noticing some warmth in that same spot from last month.

Taking antibiotics given the last time.

We'll see...

Saturday, September 24, 2005

The reason I have that soundtrack on continuous replay is because most of it fits my Sephiroth arc to well, from start to finish.

I know, ya'll don't understand me now. It's OK. I'll write it down so those of my neices and nephews, however many grands they are, understand.
OK, OK, since I'm so drunk I'll be up all night.

AIM is Jenn091075
MSN is jlsigman@hotmail.com

Go for it. ;-)
*drunkenly singing*

Hitohi-hitoyo ni Tsuki wa terazutomo
Kanashimi ni nuetori naku

A ga kaerimi suredo
Hana wa chirinu beshi

Nagusamuru kokoro wa
Kenuru ga gotoku

Aratayo ni Kamu tsudoite
Yo wa ake
Nuetori naku

Saku hana wa
Kami ni koinomu
Ikeru yo ni
A ga mi kanashimo
Ime wa kenu
Ura mite chiru

From Ghost in the Shell 2: Innocence

The english translation is fucking deep. The title is "Flowers Grieve and Fall" Hang on, let me go grab it from Kenji Kawai's webpage...

(fuck, I'm going to have to type this, it's a PDF file)

Through Day and Night, the Moon not coming
In grief, Nue will sing.
Flowers wil fall away,
The heart of solace having withered.
In a new world, Gods will decend.
The dawn will break and Nue will sing.
Flowers in bloom pray to Gods,
Lamenting over their being in this world of life,
Their dreams having faded away,
Flowers grieve and fall.
Woo, holy fuck, I'm drunk.

To my Goddess, who is as sweet and biting as the vodka I drink.

*raises shot glass*

*knocks it back*

You know you're a writer when... you're writing the novelization of the movie you're watching in your head.
Another drunken observation: I normally consider "One Winged Angel" Uematsu's weakest piece of music. In the game it's incredibly pretensious and downright awful. I started to change my opinion when I went to the Final Fantasy concert in Atlanta earlier this year. Live, with an orchestra, surrounded by a couple thousand fellow FF fans marking out, it's a different experience. The rock/orchestra version in the movie may just be the version that makes me like it despite myself.
Drunken observation: Kadaj's summoning, what I saw in print called Bahamut Sin, has the face of a Jem-Hadar from Deep Space Nine.

Carry on. ;-)
Two things have taken over my life recently:

1) Star Ocean: 'Till the End of Time
Another incredible SquareEnix RPG. Great graphics, great music, great storyline. So far my only complaint is that the English voice track was not mixed in properly and is often drowned out by the music.

2) Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
With GameStop telling me it won't be released until January, I went ahead and downloaded a fan-sub. Two words: Holy shit! I still need the full-screen version (the one I downloaded is rather small), because I know I'm missing the little details Square is famous for not overlooking. But it's INCREDIBLE... the sheer brutality of the Loz/Tifa fight leaves me breathless every time. Kadaj is incredibly sympathetic, and Sephiroth... well, he is his normal insane self.
What I found most mind-blowing was how much the fanfic I wrote last year resembles this. It will only take some editing here and there to put it in the continuity after this. I can't wait to try to start that.

But first... *points to the vodka bottle* Be back later. ;-)

Friday, September 23, 2005

*bows deeply*

I'm sorry.

*bows again*

I have no reasons, only excuses.

I'm OK. Things are going OK personally, but badly at work. I need to remember the litany against fear more often, and throw out the unneeded things more routinely.

Jeremy Lopez, I hope you're safe in Texas.

Jeannie, my thoughts are with you. Hang in there. Feel free to throw the humans out and snuggle with Worf as often as needed.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thanks to my health insurance policy not applying most doctor's visits to my deductable or out of pocket max, I'm probably looking at $2,800 in hospital bills.

I've planned out my paychecks from now until the end of the year, and I don't think anyone's getting Christmas presents, unless I work an assload of overtime.

Money really IS the root of all evil... *sigh*

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Sorry I haven't updated more about Dragon*Con, but the last couple of days have been full of stupid drama at work. But now, despite what the guy who left might think, it is over because he's gone.

Today's my birthday! I'm 30 now. I've gotten small, thoughtful gifts this year, which is great. But, since I am part hobbit (and I have the furry toes to prove it), I will share presents on my birthday, too.

These were made HERE!

(edit: Sorry, Blogger doesn't seem to want to do the "Upload to blogger thing" today)
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Top one is me at work (hence the dungeon). Bottom one is the best I could make a Lego Sephiroth.

Now, if you'll excuse me, there's whiskey to be drunk on this day. ;-)

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Work drama. Lots and lots of work drama. Will not discuss it here.

OK, here's Friday... I'll do this a bit at a time as the drama allows. :-p

Can't talk about Friday without mentioning Thursday evening. Remember my post about how scatter-brained I was? That continued... I got home, packed, and got an hour into the hour and a half drive to Janice's house when I realized that I had left my Dragon*Con pre-registration postcard, schedule, and Jedi cloak at home. I turn around while leaving a message on Janice's cell phone that included the f-word at least 5 times. She calls back laughing (which I completely deserved) and says we can meet in Augusta in the morning.

So, in the morning, I dress up as a Jedi, and leave the house around quarter to 7am. Zoom down the interstate, being passed by a former co-worker and his current co-worker wife, also heading to Dragon*Con. Wait for Janice in one of Augusta's Park and Ride facilities, which was completely trashed. She gets there about 30 minutes late, we eat at IHOP, and down the road we go.

Downtown Atlanta is... *sigh* It's very pretty. It's very hard to navigate. It's full of people who sleep out in the parks and openly rummage through the trash, but you never really feel threatened. We found our hotel, a block from the main convention sight, but the parking garage for it was already full, so my car spent the weekend on the curb right outside the lobby. After a room snafu (they tried to give us a room with only one bed), we got unloaded and ready to go. The problem with Jedi is that they have no pockets, so the intubating catheter was tucked into my undies, while my room key, ID, and money got stuffed into my bra (I'm small, there's plenty of room).

We almost couldn't find the Hilton, managing to go in the wrong direction a couple of times. But we found the food court of a mall-like place, which is always good to know. Finally, we get to registration and get registered. I see my former co-worker and current co-worker again, who have to ask what I'm dressed as. Um, did the cloak and the big fake lightsaber handle not give a clue? Anyways, Janice and I compare notes and part ways.

Noon - Gundum SEED episodes 1 - 3
It took me forever to find the room (though I must have passed the room twice), and by the time I got there they were showing episode 3. I understood nothing of what was going on or why things were happening, so I didn't stay long. I have one of the many iterations of this anime in my NetFlix queue, so I'll catch it then.

1pm - TOR 40th Anniversary of Dune party
Met Louis (Hi Louis!) before going in, and hung out with him for this. We got food and drinks and free stuff (I got a copy of The Battle of Corrin)afterwards. Kevin J. Anderson gave a good speech about Frank Herbert and Dune and stuff he and Brian are planning for the future. Unfortunately, I have not been at all impressed with any of the book they've written, which does not bode well for them wrapping up the original series as they plan to.

Went back to the hotel for Advil and coffee.

5:30pm - Gaming and Free Expression (EFF discussion)
Man, this ended up as teh suck. One of the panelists runs what she calls a "mature" RPG thing and kept going on and on and on about how the Patriot Act was going to get places like hers shut down because of anything that could even remotely be construed as terrorism. Two other panelist, one who had actually READ the Act, said that it did not cover imaginary things, but she kept insisting. I left after the third iteration of their argument.

7pm - Wrestling! Four of my old Wildside buddies (Sim J, Azrael, Murder 1, and Rainman will be there)
Oh boy, did this suck. I know I was spoiled by Wildside, but really, you do not have to have every single match go to the 20 or 30 minute time limit. I saw my old pal David Young, who looked incredible, but I couldn't last until the end when he wrestled. At 8:30 they had only were just starting the 4th match, so I left.

More later!

Monday, September 05, 2005

I'm home.


More later.

*sleeps for the next 13 hours*

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Dragon*Con's going great!

Saw this on CNN.com and had to share...

Should President Bush nominate a current Supreme Court jurist for chief justice or pick someone new?


Thursday, September 01, 2005

Work rage issues. Just... GAH, I work with stupid people, for stupid people, supporting fucking retarded people.

Then I'm kicking myself because I played FF X this morning instead of finishing the packing, so I get to leave here at 6:30pm, get home by 7pm, finish packing, and drive in the dark back roads to Janice's house while tired. Fucking idiot me.