**How can you care?** 'Because I choose to.' **You make it sound so simple.** 'That's because it is simple. Hard sometimes, but simple.'

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Happy Thanksgiving, ya'll!

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

One of my co-workers is talking about the price she's paying for infertility treatments. "It could be $17,000, and no gaurentee!" I'm thinking, "Has anyone told you that if you quit smoking and gain 10 pounds you'll have better luck?" I'm also thinking, "If you turn to an adoption agency, or even DSS, you'll spend less money and I can gaurentee you you'll get a kid out of it."

Monday, November 24, 2003

I close my eyes
Only for a moment
And the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground
Though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
...in the wind...

Aldor - 1993 to 2003
We're putting Aldor down.

He's blocked up again, and the doctor says that the medicine he gives wouldn't be good for his heart. He's also still got fluid around his lungs. And he's miserable. And he's lived 5 years longer than everyone said he would, considering the heart murmur.

Mom's going to be there with him. I can't do it. I can face my own mortality and laugh, just not anyone else's.

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

Kahvi woke me up about 4:30am this morning because of a huge freaky storm coming through. I've got 3 more hours of work. *yawning*

OK, ok, obligatory comment on Michael Jackson: just give him a lot of medication and lock him up already. It's been sad to watch him go crazy and do insane things to himself via surgery the last 10 - 15 years. I mean, if you go back and look at the Thriller cover, he was a rather handsome young Black man. Even Bad didn't have him looking too bad. Now he looks like the corpse of some alien.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

My friend Dawn (and I promise to post links to everyone else's blog someday...) told a story about someone who had hijacked Keifer Sullivan, then ended with, "Am I abnormal, or is this fucking horrifying? Isn't this sick, disgusting behavior that would normally get you arrested?"

It is.

I remember reading on some message board (Bitch Clique something-or-another) about these girls who would drive down from New Jersey to Cameron, North Carolina, to try to find Matt or Jeff Hardy or Shane Helms. The one time I tried to point out that they were stalking them, they were like, "So? They appreciate their fans and probably like it!"


Sunday, November 16, 2003

Can the Carolina Panthers please please please please PLEASE PLEASE learn a way to win a game without giving all their fans heart failure? Good gawd...

Big kudos to the Redskins, who brought their A game today. Great going.

Friday, November 14, 2003

1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space. Mine. Wait, that's not an adjective...

2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer. Republican. Wait, that's not an adjective either, damn...

3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pasttime. eye-straining, challenging, rewarding

4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day. Long, frustrating, rewarding... can't think of a fourth right now

5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life. Comfortable. Repeat 4 mroe times. :-p

"Did I dream
You dreamed about me?...
Here I am
Here I am
Waiting to hold you..."

i dreamed of you. are you ok?

Thursday, November 13, 2003

Well, after another 12 hour night of getting up every few hours and waking up as exhausted as I went to bed, I called the doctor and left a message that basically said, "I can't DO this, Sam..."

I can't take anti-histamines during the day and Anti-Vert at night. I am a complete zombie, brain dead, space cadet, no-one's-home-come-back-later. So I didn't take any this morning, and just now I think I've gotten most of the Anti-Vert from 23 hours ago out of my system.

They're sending me to an ENT.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

jack and eliz on island
You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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Monday, November 10, 2003

OK... to all you people who dislike me because I'm skinny, I give a hearty Fuck You. This includes all the people at work who think I shouldn't worry when I weight 115 pounds and then lose 2 or 3 because I can't eat because of nausea.

Sunday, November 09, 2003

"Whether you like it, or you don't like it, learn to live with it, 'cause it's the BEST. THING. GOING. TODAY. WHOOOOOOOOO!!!!"

I am, of course, referring to YOUR NFC South leaders, the Carolina Panthers.

They do need to learn how to win without killing me, tho... those last 5 minutes took at least 10 years off of my life, and I fully expect to wake up with grey hairs in the morning.

But Jake Delhomme is a good kid. He fully fessed up to screwing up in the post-game interview. But he came through with three amazing passes when they needed it most.

And John Kasey is still God.

And how 'bout them Redskins, beating the Seahawks!

Friday, November 07, 2003

I am so exhausted. Too many days and weeks of not good sleep. By not-good, I mean I was drugging myself to sleep with NyQuil or a sleeping pill instead of naturally. Even Melatonin doesn't help much.

1. What food do you like that most people hate? Unsweet tea with lots of lemon. I live in the South, getting fresh unsweet tea in some places takes an act of God.

2. What food do you hate that most people love? Chicken.

3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you? Gosh, the list goes on and on... Ben Afflick. Brad Pitt. Tom Cruise.

4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find attractive? This I don't know how to answer, I don't know who people consider unappealing.

5. What popular trend baffles you? Most of them. :-p

Monday, November 03, 2003

Good news: Dad has a job!

Bad news: It's a 4-month contract in Minneapolis.

Worse news: He can't telecommute. :-p