**How can you care?** 'Because I choose to.' **You make it sound so simple.** 'That's because it is simple. Hard sometimes, but simple.'

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

Let me tell you, drinking Fleet Phosphor Soda sucks ass.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

1. When John F. Kennedy was shot (11/22/1963)
2. When the Great Northeast Blackout occurred. (11/9/1965)
3. When Sesame Street premiered. (11/10/1969)
4. When Black September murdered eleven Israeli Olympic athletes. (9/6/1972)
5. When Patty Hearst and members of the SLA robbed the Hibernia Bank in San Francisco. (4/15/1974)

For all of the above, I wasn't born yet.

6. When Saturday Night Live first aired. (10/11/1975)

I was 1 month and 1 day old, so I probably slept through it.

7. When the USA celebrated its Bicentennial. (7/4/1976)

I was less than a year old, living in Richmond, VA. No memories.

8. When the first recorded outbreak of Legionnaires Disease was announced. (7/22/1976)

See above.

9. When the Love Canal chemical waste dump was revealed to the public. (10/3/1976)

Just over a year old, no memories.

10. When Elvis died. (8/16/1977)

I was almost 2, living in Alexandria, VA. No memories.

11. When Rev. Jim Jones and his cult at Jonestown committed mass-suicide. (11/18/1978)

I was 3, and my little sister was a couple of weeks old. No memories.

12. When the Three Mile Island nuclear disaster occurred. (3/28/1979)

I was 3 1/2, had better things to do than watch TV.

13. When ~70 Americans were taken hostage at the US Embassy in Iran. (11/4/1979)

I don't remember them being taken hostage. I think I have a vague memory of them coming home.

14. When the U.S. Olympic hockey team beat Russia. (2/22/1980)

No memory.

15. When Mt. St. Helens blew (5/18/1980)

I was almost 5, living in Falls Church, VA. I remember seeing this on the news, but it didn't affect me since it was so far away.

16. When John Lennon was killed. (12/8/1980)

No memory.

17. When Ronald Reagan was shot by John Hinckley, Jr.. (3/30/1981)

I remember there was a lot of concern about this, but only because we lived right outside of Washington and Mom worked downtown. I have more memories of the plane crash/subway crash than this, tho.

18. When Lady Diana Spencer married Prince Charles. (7/29/1981)

I remember watching parts of this on TV.

19. When the first victim of the “Tylenol Terrorist” died. (9/29/1982)

No memory.

20. When the TV-movie "The Day After" aired. (11/20/1983)

No memory.

21. When the gas leak occurred in the Bhopal, India, Union Carbide plant. (12/3/1984)

No memory. I do remember when Indira Ghandi died, tho.

22. When the space shuttle Challenger exploded (1/28/1986)

I was 10 years old, a 5th grader in Dallas, TX. Dad came to pick us up from school looking very sad. I asked him what was wrong, and he asked, "They didn't tell you?" He told us. I remember being so shocked, because we'd always watch the launchings on TV. To this day I cannot watch the footage of the explosion.

23. When the Chernobyl nuclear power plant exploded. (4/26/1987)

I don't remember anything about this, which is odd.

24. When the Exxon Valdez oil spill occurred. (3/24/1989)

I remember being outraged.

25. When the 7.1 earthquake hit San Francisco (10/7/1989)

I'm'a pass on this one, the memories associated with this are not for sharing.

26. When the Berlin Wall fell (11/7/1989)

Wishing I could be there.

27. When the Gulf War began (1/16/1991)

Babysitting some kids.

28. When OJ Simpson was chased in his White Bronco (6/17/1994)

In college, rolling my eyes at the absurdity of it all.

29. When the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in Oklahoma City was bombed (4/19/1995)

In college, at the little college post office. The lady behind the counter was glued to the TV, so I watched it.

30. When the Heaven's Gate cult committed mass-suicide. (3/26/1997)

At college. I remember reading that Nichelle Nichols (Lt. Uhura) had a brother in the cult.

31. When Princess Di was killed (8/31/1997)

At home in North Charleston, SC. Mom said something about it, and my first words were, "Her poor sons."

32. When Bush was first announced President (11/7/2000)

Probably at work. No real memory.

33. When the 6.8 earthquake hit Nisqually, WA (2/28/2001)

I don’t remember this at all.

34. When terrorists destroyed the World Trade Center (9/11/2001)

At work. I had taken off the day b efore because it was my 26th birthday. First I got a call from someone saying they were having trouble getting to the Internet, and they wanted to know something about a fire at the World Trade Center. I tried to get to news websites, but the Internet had slowed to a crawl. About the time that a picture of one of planes hitting on the towers came up, the lady came into my office, grabbed me by the arm, and dragged me into a spare office where a TV was set up. About 10 - 20 minutes later the first tower came down, and I said, "The other won't stay up."

35. When Columbia disintegrated during re-entry over Texas. (2/1/2003)

At home, it was a Saturday morning. I was on Aardwolf, and someone said something about it. I called Mom to tell her.

Monday, March 29, 2004

(poking Blogger)
Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits
What color are your sheets::
Yellow, dark blue, darker blue, and dark green
What color are your bedroom walls:: pale lavender
Do you have posters on your wall:: Yes
If so of what:: 2 of Orlando Bloom
Do you have a tv in your bedroom:: No
How many pillows are on your bed:: One
What do you normally sleep in:: shirt and gym shorts
Describe your favorite pair of pajamas::
What size bed do you have::
Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed:: No
Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom:: The cell phone is often in there, but that’s it.
Describe the last nightmare you had:: Something about getting chased
Do you sleep with stuffed animals:: Not any more
How many people can comfortably sleep comfortably in your bed:: 1
Any unusual sleeping positions:: On my back, usually, so my sinuses don’t get clogged up
Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling:: Not since college
Do you snore:: No
How about drool:: Very rarely
Do you have an alarm clock in your room:: Yes
What color is the carpet in your room:: A reddish Persian rug
What's under your bed:: Cat fur

This or that
Doughnuts/bagels:: Bagels, toasted, butter or cream cheese or peanut butter
Day/night:: Day
Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west:: East
Heaven/hell:: Heaven
Make love/have sex:: I wish...
Coffee/tea:: Both
Hamburgers/hotdogs:: Depends
Rap/rock:: Both
Britney/Christina:: Orlando
Swiss cheese/american cheese:: American
Real World/Road Rules:: sucks
Backstreet Boys/*Nsync:: Ding, dong, the witch is dead
Silver/gold:: Silver
Nike/Adidas:: Whatever’s on sale
McDonalds/Taco Bell:: Taco Bell
Sweet/sour:: Sour
Punk/emo:: What’s emo?
Hot/cold:: Hot
Winter/summer:: Summer
Spring/fall:: Spring
Operas/plays:: Plays
Read/watch tv:: Read
Cd's/tapes:: CDs
Dvd's/vhs:: DVDs
Old/new:: Depends
Shorts/skirts:: Skirts, long
Pink/red:: Purple
Colored pictures/black and white photos:: Both
Meat/vegetables:: Depends
Mexican food/chinese food:: Depends
Commercials/infomercials:: TV off
Scary movies/comedies:: Depends on the comedian
Bikinis/one piece bathing suits:: Bikini (shows off the scars, ya know)
Sandals/tennis shoes:: None
Dogs/cats:: Cats
Unicorns/fairies:: Both
Water/land:: Water
Sugar/spice:: and everything nice
Black/white:: Black
ribbons/bows:: Blech
Chicken/beef:: Beef
Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights:: No lights
Cars/trucks:: Trucks
Austin Powers/James Bond:: Bond would eliminate Powers without even breathing hard
Popcorn/pretzels:: Popcorn, although when I was a kid I loved soft pretzels
Hip/hop:: Yes
Passionate kiss/peck:: Passionate kisses
WWE wrestling/ real wrestling:: Ah, wrestling…
Back rub/foot massage:: Back rub
Picture frames/photo albums:: Frames
Pens/pencils:: Pens
Just to prove how big a dork I am... my NetFlix queue is now also kept as a spreadsheet here at work, so when I add stuff I can re-arrange it easier. :-p
Color Personality Test Report
For: Jennifer
Gender: female
Test Mode: -two_run-
Report Date: Monday, March 29, 2004 9:27:13 AM

Choosed Color Sequence:
1. Violet 2. Dark Blue 3. Black 4. Gray 5. Blue-Green 6. Brown 7. Orange-Red 8. Bright Yellow
1. Violet 2. Dark Blue 3. Black 4. Gray 5. Blue-Green 6. Brown 7. Orange-Red 8. Bright Yellow

Personality Report:

Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a situation of idealized harmony. Has an imperative need for tenderness and affection. Susceptible to anything esthetic.

Dissatisfied. The need to escape continued involvement with her present circumstances makes it imperative for her to find some solution.

Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Stresses resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. Eager to make a good impression, but worried and doubtful about the likelihood of succeeding. Feels that she has a right to anything she might hope for, and becomes helpless and distressed when circumstances go against her. Finds the mere possibility of failure most upsetting and this can even lead to nervous prostration. Seeks herself as a "victim" who has been misled and abused, mistakes this dramatization for reality and tries to convince herself that her failure to achieve standing and recognition is the fault of others. Unrealistic self-justification.


Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, and she is distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. She attempts to escape into a substitute world in which these disappointments are submerged and things are more nearly as she desires them to be.

Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting her from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.

Color Test MX
Copyright 2003 vivalite
Core Version: 1.2 BETA (Build 12022003)

Thanks Dr. Max L├╝scher and his fellow's excelence theory.
Please keep this programe for NO PROFIT use only!

Holy. Fuck. There's a couple of wrongs (I know what they are), but this is... ouch.

Friday, March 26, 2004

Off to Wildside. Be back Sunday!
Purple, dark blue, black
Food:: chocolate, Italian, steak
Song:: too many to list
Show:: Rurouni Kenshin
School subject:: Math, Computer Science
Band/singer/artist:: Black Crowes, Vanessa Carlton
Animal:: Cats
Outfit:: Jeans and a shirt
Radio station:: They all suck here
Movie:: too many to list
Pair of shoes:: None
Cartoon:: Kenshin, Slayers
Potato chip::
Drink:: Whiskey, straight
Soda:: Dr. Pepper, but only rarely
Holiday:: Christmas
Pizza topping::
Jello flavor:: Lemon
Lunch meat:: turkey bologna
Card Game:: Spider Solitaire
Video game:: Right now, Final Fantasy X
Website:: DVDVR, Delphi, The Other Arena
Book:: “Lord of the Rings”
Computer game:: Diablo II
Number:: 7
Cereal:: don’t eat it much
Disney character:: Beauty
Clothing store:: Goodwill, Wal-Mart
Past time:: playing video/computer games, reading, sleeping
Teacher:: Q, Ven
Childhood toy:: Transformers
Carnival game/ride:: The swings that go round and round
Candy bar:: Dove chocolate
Salad dressing::
Ranch, Paul Newman’s Oil and Vinegar
Thing to do on the weekend:: Shopping, sleep, nothing
Hot drink:: Coffee
Season:: Spring, Fall
Sport to watch:: Football
Person to talk to online:: Janice, Jim

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

What song do you swear was written about you or your life:: “The Unforgiven”
What's the most embarrassing cd you own:: I’m not ashamed of my CD/MP3 collection. ;-)
What's the best cd you own:: “Children of Dune”
What song do you absolutely hate:: Most of the ones on the radio
Do you sing in the shower:: No
What song reminds you of that special someone:: “A Thousand Miles”

Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!
Everytime when I look in the mirror / All these lines in my face getting clearer
Madonna:: You’re frozen / When your heart’s not open
Korn:: Feeling like a freak on a leash / Feeling like I have no release
Backstreet Boys::
The Beatles::
All you need is love, love / Love is all you need
Limp Bizkit::
Now I know why you wanna hate me / ‘Cause hate is all the world’s even seen lately
Stacie Orrico::
There’s a peace inside us all
Britney Spears:: You drive me crazy / I just can’t sleep / I’m so excited / I’m in too deep / Oh, crazy / But it feels alright
Good Charlotte::
Christina Aguilera::
But no matter how many fish in the sea / It would feel so empty without me
Kelly Clarkson::
Kelly Osbourne::
Mandy Moore::
Alicia Keys::

Tuesday, March 23, 2004


-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

How many siblings do you have:: 1 full, 2 half
What are your siblings names:: Rebecca Lynn (full sister), Heather Ruth, and Martin Lawrence
What are your parents names:: Jean and Doug
How many siblings does your mother have:: 1, my aunt Jone (yes, that’s the real spelling)
How many siblings does your father have:: 3, my aunt Mertie, and my uncles Walter and Vern
Where are your parents from:: Dad’s family is from North Carolina; Mom’s family is from Pennsylvania
Is your family close:: Yes and no. It’s complicated.
Does your family get together for holidays:: We try.
Do you have a drunk uncle:: Nope.
Any medical problems run through your family:: Anuryisms, Colitis/Crohn’s, Depression
Does someone in your family wear a toupee:: Nope
Do you have any nieces or nephews:: 3 each: Hillary, Alaina, Raven, Joshua, Caleb, and Timothy Jacob (TJ)
Are your parents divorced:: No, although they might as well be not married, according to Mom
Do you have step parents:: No
Has your family ever disowned another member of your family:: No
Did some of your family come to America from another country:: Except for those who are Native American (and I have a some, but a very little some), all families come to America from another country.
Have you ever been in love:: Yes
How many people have you said: Have I said what?
How many people have you been in REAL love with:: All love is real
How many people have you kissed:: *shrug*
Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex:: Only in a friendly, non-sexual way
How many people have you dated:: Enough
What do you look for in a guy/girl:: A decent sense of humor; shared experiences
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex:: Smile, eyes
Do you have a crush right now:: Yes
If so who is it:: Him
Do you believe in love at first sight:: Yes
Do you remember your first love:: Yes.
Who is the first person you kissed:: Jimmy Elders
Do you believe in fate:: Yes.
Do you believe in soul mates:: Yes
If so do you believe you'll ever find yours:: Yes

111 in the Netflix queue! w00t~!
Both Rich and Tam have this on their blogs. I'm putting mine up a section at a time, when I think/feel/get around to doing it.

What is your full name:: Jennifer Lee Sigman
Spell your first name backwards:: Refinnej (I use that on Aardwolf. Couldn’t think of anything else at the time.)
Date of birth:: September 10, 1975
Male or female:: Female
Astrological sign:: Virgo
Nicknames:: Jenn
Occupation:: Helping law people with their computers
Height:: 5' 4"
Weight:: Between 115 and 120, depending on when I last bothered to eat a decent meal.
Hair color:: Brown
Eye color:: Blue
Where were you born:: Richmond, VA
Where do you reside now:: Columbia, SC
Age:: 28
What does your screen name stand for:: Which one?.
Pets:: Goldeneye, Kahvi, and Sweet Thing (all cats)
Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake:: None
Piercings:: Not anymore. Last time I tried to pierce my ears (late 1998) they got and stayed infected, so I let them close and haven’t bothered since then. At one point in college I had two in each ear.
Tattoos:: I have scars instead
Shoe size:: 6 1/2
Righty or lefty:: Righty.
Wearing:: Ankle-length skirt, knee-high hose, turtle-neck sweater, hair unbound
Hearing:: (checks WinAMP) “I Alone” by Live
Eating/drinking:: Unsweet tea
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Moderate
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test
Unconscious mutterings

  1. Wife:: Partner
  2. Criminal:: intent
  3. Campaign:: bullshit
  4. Infection:: sucks
  5. Portland:: Oregon
  6. NASCAR:: don't get it
  7. IMAX:: want to see one
  8. Martian:: they're out there
  9. Nike:: way too expensive
  10. Trial:: jury
Put the links in ABC order (it's the Virgo in me), and added another online comic.

Monday, March 22, 2004

create your own personalized map of the USA
or write about it on the open travel guide

Of those 25 states, I have lived in Virginia, Tennessee, Texas, Georgia, South Carolina, and Ohio.

Why do I always get the stupid people in these classes?
Gods help me... there's a loud-mouthed woman in here. She's making up for the fact she's an idiot by being loud and obnoxious. The teacher's falling for it.

I should've brought the headphone to my MP3 player...

Sunday, March 21, 2004

thwapping Blogger for trying to eat my post

Dusty Rhodes is gonna be at Hardcore Hell Friday night! Sweet! I fully expect to become a complete mark. :-p

76 moves in the Netflix queue. The first 10 are:

1) Rurouni Kenshin, vol 15
2) The Core
3) Tomb Raider
4) Rurouni Kenshin, vol 16
5) The End of Evangelion
6) S. W. A. T.
7) Rurouni Kenshin, vol 17
8) Akira
9) Laura Croft, the Cradle of Life (altho that may change if I really despise Tomb Raider)
10) Rurouni Kenshin, vol 18

Saturday, March 20, 2004

Morning! ;-)

Friday, March 19, 2004

Whoo! 64 movies in an hour of looking. ;-) Stuff like "Deep Space Nine: season 1" (which I barely remember, and everyone says it gets better every season) and "Babylon 5: season 1" (I've only seen a handful of later episodes), the rest of the Kenshin I never watched, some Evangelion, a bunch of Cadfael mysteries, and other random anime (Inu Yusha, Cowboy Bebop, etc.) that I've been hearing about but never seen. And Transformers seasons. I figure that'll keep me occupied while I'm recovering from my outpatient surgery. ;-)

Now I need to learn how to balance watching those and beating FF X. ;-) Ah well, more projects in life. I sleep too much anyways. ;-)
I've done it... I've broken down and joined up with NetFlix. 20 movies in the queue and counting...
You are Marcie!

Which Peanuts Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

(starts humming the theme)
You are Emily Dickinson! Not all that much is
known about Emily Dickinson, probably because
she holed herself up in her room and wrote
poetry. She didn't have very many connections
with the world outside her house, and her
poetry is very introspective and
compartmentalized. You need to get out more.

Which famous poet are you? (pictures and many outcomes)
brought to you by Quizilla

Yeah, but she wrote some damn powerful poetry.
Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!

What genre of rock are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Yeah, but I wouldn't put a shotgun in my mouth and leave a mess for my wife and kid to find...
Finally remembered the Friday Five

If you...
1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?

Hmmmm... no seafood, no chicken. Asian and Italian influenced food. Don't fear the tofu!

2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
Anime and manga.

3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?

4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
Computers and math, girls only.

5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it?
My versions of lots of different stuff.
I say... and you think?

  1. Old Navy:: Overpriced
  2. Out:: Where I should be
  3. Indecent:: is different for every person
  4. UPN:: Don't get it
  5. Pupil:: Student
  6. Toothpaste:: preferably something with some whitening in it, since I refuse to give up coffee and tea, or pay $800 to my dentist to get it done professionally
  7. 1999:: didn't Prince retire that damn song?
  8. Passion:: hidden
  9. Social security:: Dead in 5 years
  10. Cliff:: Nestea plunge

Thursday, March 18, 2004


I love it! Now I know what to call myself. I like to be as vegetarian as possible, but there are days when a good thick steak hits the spot.
Refinancing went fine, I get money on Monday.

Raven's in the hospital getting rehydrated, she's lost 5 pounds in a day or two from throwing up all the time. :-(

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

Refinancing is today at 1pm. YAY!!! No mortgage payment for 3 months!

The outpatient procedure is the 31st at 3pm. If you can spare a kind thought at the time, please do. I really want this to work.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

The addiction of going through Amazon's "Recommendations" and "New For You" sections is only equalled by the frustration as the damn thing pops up a "Cannot be found" every 3 clicks.
Sandra comes by, saying she's thrown up. But she's still here.

Of course she won't leave... it would interfere with her martyr complex. Then people wouldn't notice her.

Would you survive a horror movie? Find out @ She's Crafty

Friday, March 12, 2004

An article about some outlawed fertility treatment that's legal in other countries

The woman in this article makes me want to scream. HELLO, BITCH?!? There are THOUSANDS of children waiting to be adopted. The fact that you can't conceive might be a fucking clue from someone that you need to look elsewhere. Why do you think your genetic material is so fucking important that it just has to be passed on?
Blatantly stolen from Tam, who got it from somewhere she didn't link to. ;-)

01 | Others being disappointed in me
02 | What others think of me after I do something
03 | When I know something ahead of time.
01 | My friends
02 | My family, despite our issues (or because of)
03 | My cats
01 | Stupid people
02 | Shallow people
03 | Petty people
01 | Japanese language
02 | Him
03 | Why people do crazy things to their hair
01 | Different
02 | Calm
03 | Mysterious
01 | Thin
02 | Short
03 | Long hair
01 | Crochet
02 | Deal with pettiness
03 | Forget
01 | Crossbreed
02 | Final Fantasy X soundtrack
03 | Metallica (Load and everything previous)
01 | Kiddo
02 | Take care
03 | Why?
01 | Filet Mignon
02 | Chocolate
03 | Fettucini Alfredo
01 | Japanese
02 | to play the pipe organ
03 | more ancient history
01 | Tea, unsweet, with lemon
02 | Water
03 | Coffee
01 | Jayce and the Wheeled Warriors
02 | Transformers
03 | Thundercats
01 | Chewing my lips
02 | Getting aggrevated with people
03 | Not eating right
01 | "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton
02 | "Hero" by Chad Kroger (from the "Spiderman" movie)
03 | "Dare" by Stan Bush (from "The Transformers" movie)
01 | Tier my character on Aardwolf
02 | Beat Final Fantasy X
03 | Go to the beach
I say... and you think...

  1. Dogma:: got run over by my karma
  2. Spirit:: inside, outside
  3. Voodoo:: interesting
  4. Demon:: we all have one
  5. Digital:: camera
  6. Ceremony:: group vs. individual
  7. Research:: much needed
  8. Career:: here
  9. Penis:: rolls eyes
  10. Film:: expensive to get developed

I don't need surgery! Woo-hoo!!

The doctor is pretty sure he can fix the fistula through outpatient.

Now to get the damn bank to finish my refinancing...

Thursday, March 11, 2004

What's On the back seat of your car Right Now?

A book from the last MOUS class I took, my car window shade, and pillow for Wildside trips.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004


Which Final Fantasy X-2 character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Duh. Yuna and I have a lot in common, and I'm only half-way or so through FF X. It's the sense of responsibility, even at the cost of self.
Angst. You are an angel of angst. Once one of
water. But your depression has caused you to
become an outcast. You love to be by yourself,
as it helps you think. You have always, and
always will wonder what has gone wrong. Your
soul has been shattered, and your wings are in
peices. But that's just you. You spend your
days searching for something. Not someone.
Though you don't know what you are looking for.
You don't even remember who you are. And are
always trying to find that person, yourself,
your soul. Which seems to have been misplaced. But.
When you find what you are looking for, it
will become clear. All tragedy will be ripped
from your wings, and your true colours will
show. And then, you are the most powerful of
them all. Hang on, keep looking for it is there. Just try not
to loose all you hope and become nothing. For
you are truly beautiful.

What Type Of Angel Have You Become?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are the chinese element of Water. People who
are under the element of Water are creative,
independent and intelligent. Water you are a
dreamer, but are quite vulnerable, and have
hidden agendas. The color of water is black,
and your symbol is the tortoise. Winter is the
season in which Water shines and it's months
are October/November. Your weather condition
is cold. Water is the direction of north, and
your day is Wednesday, while your planet is
Mercury. Animals under your element are
usually shelled.
Your sense is hearing, your taste is salty,
your sound is moaning and your virtue is
knowledge. Your organs are the kidneys. You
were created by Metal and control Fire.

Which of the 5 Chinese Elements Are You?
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Pink Vibes
Your Energy is Pink. You have achieved a perfect
balance between spiritual awareness and
material existence. You are usually
affectionate and warm, showing compassion and
love for others. Others find you genuine,
cooperative and friendly. You are a
humanitarian and you possess a deep
understanding of life. You may aspire to
philanthropy, or you may find yourself heading
or volunteering for agencies that create change
for the good of the whole. You are a leader
and are willing to take on much responsibility.

What color is your energy?
brought to you by Quizilla

*snort* Me, pink?
anime chick
You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.

What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
Why aren't places open before 9am?

I go to the grocery store to get a Western Union money order, and while the registers are open, the customer support desk doesn't open until 9am. Nowhere else around that sells Western Union is open until 9am, either.
That damn bill in Georgia passed 146-16 or so.

Click on the Wildside link over on the right, then go to the message board. There's a link from Norko Kipte that has the email addresses of every single Georgia state senator. The bill is now in their house, so let them know that this is a REALLY BAD IDEA.

My God... if I lose Wildside, I don't know what I'll do.

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Angel by Sarah McLachlan

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty, oh, and weightless, then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you feel
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
Don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh, this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you feel
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
Once again, Representative Alan Powell is introducing legislation that would make it impossible for promoters to run in Georgia. He wants to charge $1000 a year and $250 per match.

I know he's been introducing crap like this since 2001.

Here's his contact information. Be polite.

Rep. Alan Powell
Room 401 State Capitol
Atanta, GA 30334

404-657-0499 (F)


PO Box 248
Hartwell, GA 30643

Tonight: Rain at times mixed with snow. Snow will be mainly confined to
grassy surfaces. Up to a half inch in the midlands...more snow north of
Columbia. Low: 34

Wednesday: Snow showers early, the Partly Cloudy High: 52

And it was so nice last week...

Can I go home now? Seymour (FFX reference, sorry) needs an ass-kicking.
These are the days when I want to scream.

Asked for unsweet tea at the Taco Bell. Got all the way back to the office, then took a swig. It's sweet tea.

The surgeon can't see me until April 20th. Meanwhile, I have a call in to the GI doc about the antibiotic I'm taking. It's called Cipro. To put it in perspective, it's the stuff they gave the Anthrax victims a couple of years ago. Anyways, I want to know if it's really safe to take this stuff continuously for the next 6 - 8 weeks. I'll need another script or two, too.
Oooh, I step on the network guys' toes, now I'm in trouble.

Sorry I was able and willing to help someone right away to be able to log in...

Monday, March 08, 2004

The battery died in my car Saturday. There goes another $50...

Surgeon in Florida is trying to get me to come down there. He doesn't seem to understand that I am NINE HOURS away from where he is. He doesn't seem to get that the trip is a huge hassle, financially and mentally.

He'll get it, one way or another. I've made my choice.

Friday, March 05, 2004

It's not if, but when at this point.

Surgery, that is.

My pouch is failing. I have the third fistula (this one draining to the surface) in a year. I could go back to Florida for 2 - 4 weeks to get this latest fisulta "fixed"; or, I could go back to Florida for 4 1/2 weeks to get a whole new pouch; or, I could get a local surgeon to give me a Brooke's (an external pouch for the uninformed).

If you said, "Hmmm, door #3 looks nice," then you're thinking the same way I am.

I don't know when it is quite yet. I'm holding everything off because I'm in the middle of refinancing my mortgage. I also haven't met the surgeon yet, so it'll depend on his schedule as well. Right now I'm holding steady (well, as steady as you can with a draining wound) on Cipro twice a day.

Now, if you'll excuse me, there's fiends that need thrashing on the Moonglow Road. And chocolate to eat. And whiskey to eyeball.

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Baylor professor gets people to boycott Girl Scouts because the one troop dared to say Planned Parenthood is OK.

Can I buy some cookies from that troop?
Must... stop... clenching... my... jaw...

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

listens to my female co-workers chatting and laughing in Sandra's room

Well, I'll be answering the phones for the rest of the day. *shrug*

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

You are Cleopatra of the Nile. The great
biographer of the time, Plutarch, wrote of
Cleopatra, 'Her actual beauty, it is said, was
not in itself so remarkable that none could be
compared with her, or that no one could see her
without being struck by it, but the contact of
her presence, if you lived with her, was
irresistible . . . It was a pleasure merely to
hear the sound of her voice, with which, like
an instrument of many strings, she could pass
from one language to another . . .' You have a
spark in you that draws other people to you.
Indeed, you are drawn to others because you are
always curious. People can talk to you; and
you have a passion in life to know, live, love,
and learn.

What famous female ruler are you? (written for the girls)
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You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.

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Earth Goddess
You are the Goddess of Earth. You are very stable
and dependable since the Goddesses rest apon
you. You are very materialistic. Somtime cold
and distant, but that might be because you need
to get what needs to be done, done. But yet you
are everyone elses strength. You are the most
Stable of the Goddesses, since without you the
other Goddesses would not exist.
Other Earth Goddesses: Ceres, Cerridwyn, Demeter,
Gaia, Persephone, Epona, Kore, Mah, Prithivi,
Rhea, Rhiannon

Which of the Four Elemental Goddesses are you?(With Pics)
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I'm not bored... it's just too nice outside and I'm stuck here at work.
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Your a Magical Angel!Out of all the angels, you are
the one most afflicted with magic. You can do
many enchantments as well as sorcery. You cant
do black magic, because even though your not so
"pure" your still an angel. A very
kind and curious one at that. Magical Angels
are always very easy-going with humans, but
intrestingly enough, like to expirement with
them with their spells.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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Monday, March 01, 2004

In the Movies:

[taste]:: Do you take food or drinks into the movies? What do you like to eat/drink while you watch a movie?
Depends. If I've gone out to eat beforehand, no. Otherwise, I like water and some candy. What kind of candy depends on what the theater has.

[touch]:: Do you have a "kissing in the movies" story to share?
Yes, I have a story. Let's just say I missed most of "Basic Instinct". *blush*

[sight]:: Where do you like to sit when you go to the movies? Front, middle, back? Left, right? Does it matter? And what do you do when there´s someone sitting in front of you who´s blocking your view?
Middle of the row, front-to-middle of the rows. If someone's blocking me, usually I move.

[smell]:: If we could smell things in movies, which movie would you want to watch (and smell) and why?
I'd rather not most of the time, unless it was some scene in a restaurant.

[hearing]:: What do you do when people are talking during a movie and disturbing you? Are you the kind of person who sighs and hopes they will stop or do you say something?
Normally I'll say something like, "Would you please be quiet!" very loudly (opera training has it's uses). And no, I get mad. If they don't shut up, I'll go find the manager.

I say ... and you think ... ?

Hollywood :: fake
Censor :: government
Nascar :: redneck
Lube :: oil change
Mortgage :: refinance
Freedom :: given
Champion :: Queen
Reality TV :: stupid
New York :: big
Tease :: yes