**How can you care?** 'Because I choose to.' **You make it sound so simple.** 'That's because it is simple. Hard sometimes, but simple.'

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

At home full time now. YAY!!!

Friday, December 22, 2006

I'm hanging in there, continuing to recover. My bad shoulder still screams a lot, but my range of motion is getting better every day. The skin on my chest is healed up from being ripped off by all the tape, but I've still got a fairly spectacular collection of bruises.

Just taking it one day at a time...

Monday, December 18, 2006

I am out of the hospital now... and I stay out of work until January 8th or 9th. I see my doctor tomorrow, and the cardiologist on the 8th.

More later... my shoulder is sore. Thanks for everything. :-)

Sunday, December 17, 2006

It's amazing how things work sometimes.

Tuesday night I have a little pain in my chest when I breathe, but I had come home to a house covered in cat spit up, so I wrote it off as exhaustion and went to bed. The next day, I couldn't walk across the hall to the meeting room without gasping for air. I just thought it was a chest cold, or maybe bronchitis, so I told my boss I was heading to the Urgent Care for some antibiotics and maybe an inhaler, and would be back in a few hours.

Not exactly.

The doctor liked neither my breathing nor my history, so he ordered EKG and a CT-Angiogram. The EKG didn't show anything. The CT scan showed multiple clots on my heart and lungs. One ambulance ride to the hospital later... a doppler of my legs didn't show anything in there, and a sonogram of my heart didn't show anything. So we started the blood thinner cycle, I go on a heart monitor, and I started thinking about how I was going to have to get off of the hormones and start menstruating again, which sucks.

Friday afternoon Dr. Albert, brother of the Dr. Albert who's fixed my guts the last few years, comes in with a bad look on his face. Apparently my heart stops beating for 3 - 4 seconds at a time. Next thing I know, I'm getting a pace maker put in.

Yes, a pace maker. At 31. For probably the rest of my life.

I have noticed some improvements already, in blood flow and coloring. The only concern left over is that my heart rate seems to hover around 120 beats per minute.

I don't know how much longer I'll be here, probably a few more days until my blood is thin enough for them. We won't talk about money and paychecks.

But, if I hadn't been in here for a blood clot, I never would have known.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

You are pure awareness.

The world is an illusion,
Nothing more.

When you understand this fully,
Desire falls away.

You find peace.

For indeed!
There is nothing.

Ashtavakra Gita 15:17

Thursday, November 30, 2006

To the Divine Goddess who resides in all existence in the form of Confusion, we bow to Her; we bow to Her; we bow to Her, continually we bow, we bow.

Presiding over the senses of all beings and pervading all existence, to the Omnipresent Goddess who individualizes creation we bow, we bow.

In the form of Consciousness She distinguishes the individual phenomena of the perceivable universe. We bow to Her; we bow to Her; we bow to Her; we bow to Her, continually we bow, we bow.

-Chandi Patha

Sunday, November 26, 2006

To everyone of us there must come a time when the whole universe will be found to have been a dream, when we find the soul is infinitely better than the surroundings. It is only a question of time, and time is nothing in the infinite.

-Sai Baba

Friday, November 24, 2006

I have bought a ticket for the Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert here in Columbia on the 13th of December~!!!

*dances around the room*

Yes, I probably shouldn't have, considering the boss has taken away all our overtime and all, but damn... I missed them the last couple of years because of hospital stays and such, and I am NOT missing them this time!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Depression sucks, and leaves you without much of anything to write about.

I'll be OK, though... I have my kitties to purr in my bed with me.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Your Vocabulary Score: B+

You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying.
Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Monday, November 06, 2006

I swear, I've got candidates calling me every hour or two. :-p

Friday, November 03, 2006

No matter how bad a state of mind you may get into, if you keep strong and hold out, eventually the floating clouds must vanish and the withering wind must cease.


That about sums up work right now...

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Yesterday I get a certificate from the Accounting department in thanks for "being available to quickly solve our computer problems and issues, making sure people are back to work with little delay, and for always maintaining a truly positive attitude".

Today my boss says I'm answering too many calls, that I need to give out the more long-term and research-involved calls to others, and here's a bunch of projects we want you to do, including a newsletter and learning how to run EPO...

...so you don't have time to answer so many calls so quickly...

*rolls eyes*

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Look into the sphere of birthless mind!
Let dawn the enjoyment of ceaseless play!
When free of hope and fear--that's the result.
Why speak of birth and death?
Come to the natural, unmodified state!

-Drinking the Mountain Stream: Songs of Tibet's Beloved Saint, Milarepa

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

I find it pathetic, when it's not rage-inducing, that neither my boss nor her boss trust their underlings to do work, and have to constantly harass, hound, and threaten with dicipline unless things are done.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Inpired while toweling dry from a shower:

Long lines of tissue
Up and down, across and back
Define who I am
*giggling madly*

I think Microsoft's been Slashdotted. ;-) I'm trying to download the new IE 7.0 release to test here at work, and my T3 is fighting to download it at 10KB a second. This may be the slowest 14MB download in a long time. ;-)

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

I am so fucking tired of being left out at work. Whether is lunches, meetings, just general knowledge, whatever. When shit work needs to be done, oh, I'm there. Otherwise, I'm not.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Everything's about to change at work, either for better or worse... our new VP & Chief Technology Officer starts Monday. I no longer believe in the platitude, "Things can't get worse," because believe me, they can. I just need to keep the following in mind...

There is no fire like greed and no crime like hatred. There is no sorrow like being bound to this world; there is no happiness like freedom.


I am professional. I am above petty politics. I get my work done and don't expect others to finish what I start. If he can't see that, then I will move on.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Lou Dobbs tells middle-class America to wake the fuck up

From the article...

Individual firms, corporations and national organizations spent a record $2.14 billion on lobbying members of Congress and 220 other federal agencies in 2004, according to PoliticalMoneyLine. That's nearly $6 million a day spent to influence our leaders. We really do have the best government money can buy.

So, did you contribute to that? I didn't think so...

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Adventures in corporate stupidity...

We use a program called Shavlik to push out Windows and Office updates. It needs to be renewed every year, and it's going to come due in about 3 weeks. Last week I got in touch with Shavlik in order to start the process. Now, we're a multi-billion dollar commercial real estate company, but we don't have any kind of corporate credit card to pay for these things with, so we asked for a purchase order. We get it, fill it out, hand it to corporate accounting so they can cut a check.

Corporate accounting decided that they don't cut checks from POs anymore, they have to have an invoice. Shavlik needs a filled out PO to send an invoice. So, what do you think happened next?

If you said, "Corporate accounting sent Shavlik the PO so they could get an invoice," you would be WRONG.

Corporate accounting sent an email to my boss late Friday saying Shavlik needed a PO until they could send an invoice. Corporate accounting calls me today asking if I'd seen the email. I said yes, but the director is on vacation, how can I help? They want a PO. I said we gave them a PO. They said they'll make a copy of the PO and drop it by me so I can send it to Shavlik for them and get an invoice that they'll pay.


Friday, October 06, 2006

NuclearPower is the home of 8-bit theater, a web comic that is rapidly becoming one of my favorites, if only because of the following punchline...

*dies of giggling*

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

I was putting together a music list to go to sleep to last night, and found that Dell had plunked a bunch of free music onto the hard drive. Most of it is crap, but there's been a couple of interesting things. One of them was a song by Guy Forsythe called "Long Long Time". Mostly it's him talking over the music, but it's an incredibly biting look at American society. The last line is this:

I wonder how the world sees us, rich beyond compare, powerful without equal? A spoiled 15 year old waving a gun in their face?

Yeah, basically, fuck you very much President Bush and Co....

Sunday, October 01, 2006

When we are firmly established in nonviolence, all beings around us cease to feel hostility. When we are firmly established in truthfulness, action accomplishes its desired end.

When we are firmly established in integrity, all riches present themselves freely. When we are firmly established in chastity, subtle potency is generated. When we are established in nonattachment, the nature and purpose of existence is understood.

-The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali 2: 35-39

Saturday, September 30, 2006

The Republicans:

They put an Arabian Horse Judge in charge of disaster management.
They put oil company lobbyists in charge of our energy policy.
They put Dubai in charge of our port security.
And they put a child predator in charge of the Committee for Missing and Exploited Children.
Who will you put in charge in November?

And the Broken Oaths meme:
"I do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will faithfully execute the Office of President of the United States, and will to the best of my ability, preserve, protect and defend the Constitution of the United States."

Repost. Remind. Remember.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Monday, September 25, 2006

So after moping about it for way too long, I've grabbed myself by the scruff of the neck and started doing something about what's been making me most unhappy lately. I've got three vouchers for three Office certification tests, and I'm spending all my free time at work plowing through as much of the free online training as I can manage.

I'm still waiting for the shit to hit the fan where I am, but at least now I know where my path leads for the next couple of months.

Friday, September 22, 2006

*puts on my best Vampire Willow face*

Bored now...

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Absolute best shitty translation EVER...

Publicons.de is a German page that does those neat little "Fan of" icon things that you see people use all over the place. I ran it though Google's translation thing just to get a better idea of what it does, and it spit out this wonderful bit of mis-translation...

Retarded treatment of Sponsoring inquiries
Between that 09.09.2006 and that 16.09.2006 it can come in the course of a revision of our Sponsoringsystems to delays in the completion of E-Mail inquiries. No message is lost, does not surprise you however please nevertheless not, if an answer takes time some days.

*falls over and dies laughing*

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Hmmm, guess I should catch up...

1) Birthday went good, except for the Panthers getting their asses kicked by the Falcons. The final tally was: $20, a new coffee pot, "Sims 2", "Dragon Quest VIII", and a pasta cook book.

2) Been a bit down/out of it/sick since then. Part of it is my arthritis, part of it is my sinuses, and part of it is despising the people I work with. I'm doing what I can about all those situations.

3) New computer is amazing.

4) Buffy season 4 starts out like shit, but I'm told it gets better, so I'm hanging in there.

That's all I can think of for now.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

*coming up for air*

Computer is working wonderfully, in the process of transferring and uninstalling and reinstalling and all that jazz. Be online when I can. :-)

Friday, September 08, 2006

There's something about J-Pop that is so inherantly joyful... I put on what little I have, mostly the incredible T.M.Revolution, and my mood immediately improves. I am a child of the 80's, so I'm probably remembering the pop radio music of those times, which had a similar feel.

Monday, September 04, 2006

"Sometimes I catch and hold
love and pain, tightly in my arms.
It will fade away, but
I will remember it... Always...."
- "Radical Dreamers", Yasunori Mitsuda

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Hey, yo, these are some serious times that we living through
And a new world order is about to begin
You know what I’m saying?
Now the question is are you ready
For the real revolution
Which is the evolution of the mind?
If you seek then you shall find
That we all prove from the divine
You dig what I’m saying?
Now if you take heed
To the words of wisdom
That are written on the walls of life
Then universally we will stand
And divided we will fall
'Cause love conquers all
You understand what I’m saying?
This is a call to all you sleeping souls
Wake up, and take control of your own cipher
And be on the look out for the spirits tonight
Trying to steal your light
You know what I’m saying?
Look what beside yourself
For peace
Give thanks
Live life
And release
You dig me?
You got me
- "He Got Game", Public Enemy

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Well, by this time next week, I should have a new home computer. This one is dying, and it was cheaper to buy another one than to repair and upgrade this 4 year old one. Looking forward to being able to Sim. ;-)

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Guess who's getting that burning excruciating pain in her left shoulder again?


*eyeballs Vicodin*

*makes note to call doctor*

Monday, August 28, 2006

Today's Astronomy Picture of the Day does a very good job of illustrating our solar system and gives a good visual reason for the demotion of Pluto. Be warned, though... when it says click on the picture for a bigger version, they're not kidding: the original is 1.3MB, 6000+ x 3500ish pixels. Perfect for teaching aids, if you've got a big color plotter than can handle something like that.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Between August 7th and August 19th, I closed 235 help desk tickets and worked 17.5 hours of overtime.

No wonder I'm exhausted. :-p

Sunday, August 20, 2006

On Normal difficulty, it took me 11 hours and 30 minutes to beat Dirge of Cerberus.

*lets that sink in*

This was disappointing. The story takes a left turn into WTF land during Chapter 11 and never comes back. There are some cringe-inducing, eye-rolling dialog and stuff that really trashes the FF VII gang at the end.

About the only real good thing was the introduction of Shelke, who is a rather interesting character... too bad she was mostly fan service and sicko jail bait (19 year old mind, 10 year old body! File this under "I'll pretend you said you were 19..."). :-p

I can take bits and pieces of this, mostly bits that are casually mentioned by various minor characters, and incorporate it into my personal writings, but man... I never thought I'd say this about a Final Fantasy game...

This suxx0red.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

About 2 1/2 "chapters" into Dirge of Cerberus... mixed feelings so far:
- It's very pretty graphically.
- The voices are OK, although I still long for a Japanese subtitled version, since Vincent's voice is better, and admittedly I haven't had to hear Cid's south Texas drawl yet (rant pending, I'm sure).
- The controls are a pain in the butt. I think I have the difficulty with the targeting system mostly figured out (ramp up the speed and turn on automatic tartget locking), but for a shooting game it's rather inaccurate.
- I haven't seen enough of the story yet to make much of a judgement, but the new characters are fairly interesting.
- The music is very good... Masashi Hamauzu did some of my favorite tracks from FF X (Crisis, Challenge, Assault... notice a theme here? *grin*), and does an incredibly job with the whole score here. He ever made me like a Gackt song, which I had never thought would happen.

More updates on it as I go along... although I think I've figured out Weiss's secret already. ;-)

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

I don't get it... all of the gaming sites, SquareE's webpage, and even my local newspaper say Dirge of Cerberus comes out today. But... not really, according to the Game Stop store. It only ships today. It's not actually available until tomorrow.

So, why say it's out today?

Monday, August 14, 2006


You never realize just how ambidextrous you are until you toast your bad shoulder during 11+ hours of weekend overtime...

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

If you want to know why I haven't been posting much lately... it's work. Here's an example from my weekly status report:

August 1 to August 7, I worked Tuesday, half of Wednesday, off Thursday, half of Friday, and all of Monday. In those basically 3 whole business days I opened and closed 94 help desk calls.

My co-worker can barely do one thing, and is completely incapable of multi-tasking OR remembering something you told him how to do the day before. My new boss is convinced she's overwhelmed, so I'm doing half of her job for her, and getting yelled at for it.

Meanwhile, I have a sinus and ear infection that won't clear up (wonder why?).

I'm stymied, creatively. I have this character in my head who desperately needs to be written, who deserves life, and I can't get her on the page because I'm too busy and too exhausted.

Meanwhile, Mom's been diagnosed with small vessel disease in her brain (and heart, too, probably) and fears she'll come down with dementia in the next 5 years. She'll be 61 Friday. So she's pushing for us to live together, and while that may work for her, it really would not work for me. But I feel guilt, because I really will be the one who'll have to take care of her since I don't have my own family, and my being sick just pushes her to push me more.

So... I'm snarly a lot. If you can't deal with that, don't try to talk to me, I cannot gaurentee I will always be my usual polite self.
I know, it's terrible that I should ask this but... can someone point me to where I can find cheats for NES roms? Specifically FF 3 (j)? I have gotten to one point where I literally cannot get past because the mobs split when you hit them and you can never run/escape from them. :-p

Otherwise, I'm OK...

Thursday, July 27, 2006

I need a new job.

After three good days of training, I've been here 3 hours, and I'm already so pissed off that I'm getting a migraine.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Clean bathroom: Check!
Clean laundry: Check!
Clean self: Check!

OK, I've gotten everything accomplished for the day, how about you? ;-)

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Why the hell are politicians in my state such fucktards?

Charleston lawmaker says if he wanted to shoot utility workers, he would have killed them. Here's the full story as to what this moron is in trouble for.

*shakes head* Bad thing is that unless he is convicted and can't run for office, he'll likely just get voted right back in next time...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

I've had to retreat the last couple of weeks in order to keep my sanity mostly intact. Between money woes, work stupidity, and the never-ending battle against manic-depression, I just wasn't worth being around.

I'm better than I was now. I've gotten more good sleep recently. Work has gotten even more interesting, with someone who has told other she doesn't like me now being my boss, but I'm willing to be the professional one. I still have no money, but I'm not killing myself over it now.

Life goes on.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Guess what?

My AC is shot. It's 81 in the house. The compressor fan won't turn. The system is ancient.

Anyone got a few to several thousand dollars lying around to replace it? Because I can tell you know that's what will need to happen.

No Dragon*Con this year. Or next, at the rate I'm going...
Self-control will place a man among the Gods,
While lack of it will lead him into deepest darkness.

-Tirukkural 13:121

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Let there be nothing behind you; leave the future to one side. Do not clutch at what is left in the middle; then you will become a wanderer and calm.

-Sutta Nipata

Friday, June 30, 2006

Jenova's Witness

*falls out of the chair laughing*

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Update: Martin's on his way home with Mom. They're not 100% sure if it was a mini-stroke or just a massive migraine, but the numbness in his face is receding. Mom will be with him until he can see the doctor, so she can make sure they know the family history.
I may not be around much for the next little while. My older half-brother Martin, who's 41, had a mini-stroke overnight and is in the hospital. My mom is on the way up there, but if it turns into a long-term hospital stay, I'll need to go up there and help with Josh and Caleb (5 and 4). I'll keep everyone informed.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Friday morning I went into the attic to open the vents, and grabbed a box that hadn't been claimed in 5 years. Finding nothing in there I wanted, I threw the box and everything in it into the trash.

Two days later, there's been no incriminations, no sudden calls and "Hey, I want to come by and get X". I think I'll press my luck with another box. :-p

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Well, my cell phone battery won't hold a charge longer than 6 or so hours, so I guess I'm heading to the Verizon store after work to see what (if anything) they can (or will) do for me...

Or I'll just buy a new one. I'd like one that has the capability of using MP3s as ring tones, so I can make my own. But those tend to be $300, which I sure don't have.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Tim Hildebrandt has died.

You do know him. He's one half of the Brothers Hildebrandt. They're famous for the original Star Wars poster, most of the way we see the Lord of the Rings characters, and some of the most incredible bits of comic book card art in the 90's. The art world will never be the same.

Friday, June 09, 2006

I've been having a rather shitty week, but getting this has made my day. I won a contest sponsored by a Cindy Ngan (check her resume!), so I sent her a pic of me and a pic of Sephiroth, and told her to work her magic on it. I love the results. ;-)

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Sunday, June 04, 2006


Interesting story or not, Chrono Cross is about to get sold back to the store. My reward for trying to save Kid when she's poisoned it getting my ass kicked 7 ways to Sunday in one battle after the other. The leveling system, or lack thereof, sucks and the magic system is a pain in the ass.


Saturday, June 03, 2006

You scored as Jean Grey. Jean Grey is likely the most powerful X-Man. She loves Cyclops very much but she has a soft spot for Wolverine. She's psychic so she can sense how others are feeling and tries to help them. She also has to control her amazing powers or the malevolent Phoenix entity could take control of her and wreak havok. Powers: Telekinetic, Telepathic

Jean Grey
















Emma Frost






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Dear Hotmail,

Your Windows Live Mail sucks like a really sucky thing.

I think I'll configure Thunderbird to make it better.



Wednesday, May 31, 2006

What is it about Passion, and Sanctuary, both from Kingdom Hearts II, both sung by Hikaru Utada, that always makes me tear up?

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Bits of wisdom for you...

There is a benefit even in misfortune, for it is the rod
With which a man can measure the loyalty of friends.

-Tirukkural 80:796

In reply to the question, 'What is the best that people can possess, what brings them truest happiness, what is the sweetest of the sweet, and what is the pleasantest life to live?' the Buddha answered:

'Trust is the best that people can possess; following the way brings happiness; truth is the sweetest of the sweet; and the practice of insight is the pleasantest way to live.'

-Sutta Nipata

Friday, May 26, 2006

ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod

The second principal on "Buddy the Vampire Slayer" is QUARK FROM DS:9!!!

*dies* *repeatedly*

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Blatantly stolen from Dawn...

The soundtrack of your life! Put your music player on random, no skipping, and put music to the following:

Opening Credits
REO Speedwagon - Roll With the Changes

Waking Up
Maasaki Endo - LIVE in Bagdad
Well, that'll bounce your butt out of bed in the morning, heavy metal from the "Cowboy Bebop" soundtrack.

An Ordinary Day
Aesop Rock - No Regrets
And she said:
'Look, I've
never had a dream in my life
Because a dream is what you
wanna do, but still haven't pursued
I knew what I
wanted and did it till it was done
So i've been the
dream that I wanted to be since day one!'
Fuck. Yeah.

Falling in Love
Yuki Kajiura - The Image Theme of Xenosaga II
Piffle. Spent the song looking for lyrics or a translation, but came up with nothing. The song is in Latin but with an almost Celtic feel.

The Rumble
Medicine - Time Baby III
From the first Crow soundtrack, and of course it's one of the slow songs. *sighs*

The Break-Up
Michael Kamen - Mutant School
From the first X-Men movie.

Getting Back Together
Nobuo Uematsu - The Place I'll Return To Someday
LOL! Even the title fits...

Life's Okay
The Chemical Brothers - Asleep from Day

The Mental Breakdown
Simple Red - Sad Old Red
OK, my WMP is scaring me now...

Underground Resistance - Jupiter Jazz part 1
LOL! I have gone around town with my windows down and this blaring. I get weird looks... I don't understand why...

The Flashback
Phil Collins - Strangers Like Me
"I wanna know
Can you tell me
I wanna know about these strangers like me..."

The Frat Party
Tetsuya Shibata - Cerberus Appearance
Yeah, I'd approach a frat party with about as much dread as I'd approach a three-headed demon dog...

Everybody Dance Now
Nobuo Uematsu - Ride On
That... would be some weird dancing. ;-)

Aerosmith - Dream On
*thunk* OK, how in the hell did my WMP pick that out?!?!?

The Long Night Alone
Pink Floyd - A Great Day for Freedom
"I dreamed you had left my side
No warmth, not even pride remained
And even though you needed me
It was clear that I could not do a thing for you"
(I swear, it's on random!)

A Death
Nobuo Uematsu - Boss Battle 1
From Chrono Trigger. OK, Dawn, which one of us has more Uematsu-san than should be allowed by law? ;-)

End Credits
Avril Lavigne - Forgotten
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea


I know I wanna run away
I know I wanna run away
Run away
If only I could run away
If only I could run away
Run away
I told you what i wanted
I told you what i wanted
What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won't be forgotten
Never Again

[Chorus (2x)]

Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah

(camera pans as I walk away from it)

Er, sorry. ;-)

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

I have spent the last 5 1/2 hours getting my ass kicked by a laptop.

Badly kicked.

Like, Horseman-style curb stomping kind of kicked.


Saturday, May 20, 2006

Develop the mind of equilibrium. You will always be getting praise and blame, but do not let either affect the poise of the mind: follow the calmness, the absence of pride.

-Sutta Nipata

That is the hardest thing, believe me... but a worthy goal.
Woke up yesterday morning a bit feverish, with a sore throat and a bit of a dry cough. Since my sister came up with strep throat Thurseday and I saw her daughter, who had a juicy cough, that night, I figured that as much as I don't have the sick leave, I'd better stay home and rest it out, or I would miss a lot more than one day. Last year strep throat cost me an Urgent Care visit, IV fluids, and 3 days off from work. :-p

So I spent the day playing FF VII, and the following is some rambling as I try to work out Cloud and what he is, exactly.

Timeline-wise, we know things happen in this order:
1) Sephiroth is born, Lucrecia "dies", Vincent is turned from Turk into Vincent
2) Gast leaves Nibelheim and ends up in the frozen north, where he meets Ifalna, the last Cetra
3) Aerith is born, Hojo kidnaps her and Ifalna, Gast dies
4) Cloud is born

We know Cloud is a real person by the middle of the second disk of the game, when he and Tifa piece together his shattered persona in the Lifestream. But Hojo insists several times that Cloud is a Sephiroth clone, and a failed one at that. This confused the hell out of me for a while, but now I think I can say that the two are not contradictions.

For all that Rufus calls Hojo and second-rate scientist, I think it's pretty obvious that he's not. When Nibelheim happened (and boy, was "Last Order" a retcon or what?), Hojo's biggest experiment, his son Sephiroth, was gone, as well as a chunk of JENOVA. All he had left was the boy who had somehow managed to hurt Sephiroth, and he was in pretty bad shape, and a headless blob of JENOVA, which might or might not have been sentient. Wanting to save the boy so he could figure out how he was able to defeat the undefeatable, he jammed the broken body with JENOVA cells and Mako energy to try to save it.

Unfortunately, Cloud's mind could not handle it, and he was deamed a failure. So we end up with a broken-minded Cloud being rescued by Zack, who is eventually killed by Shin-Ra soldiers. When Tifa finds Cloud in Midgar, it's not until she says his name that he pulls himself together, but what he grabs is some weird combination of himself, Zack, and even Tifa. I have a feeling that the JENOVA cells made him a bit telepathic, and he picked up memories from the two people who cared for him and made them his own, even though that didn't fit, because it helped make him somewhat whole.

Please feel free to debate this with me... I'm sorta tossing this out there so I can get some things straight in my head for a bunch of FF related fan fiction.

Monday, May 15, 2006

There's nothing that'll put you in a better mood than watching 2 week old kittens crawl around. The biggest, a boy named Karl, is quite like a human baby at times. I held him a while, then when he wasn't noticably warmer than my hands, I put him back into the pile with his sisters (of the other 3, 2 are definitely girls). He rolled around his fat belly and mostly onto his back, then shook out one back leg, then looked at it.

"Yes, that's your leg."

He looked at it, then at me, then back at it while he shook it out some more. Then he put one front paw into his mouth and chewed on it a bit.

"Yes, that's your other leg, too."

After munching on his own toes a minute, he turned and munched on one of his sister's ears.

"Now, those are hers, be nice."

I love babies. :-)

Friday, May 12, 2006

Just fair warning, I have been in that mood since Wednesday morning... I'm tired of work, of having to work 9 hour days and Saturdays because I owe the hospital a stupid amount of money, of having to be nice to people and co-workers who are stabbing me in the back more often than not, etc.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

I need to show "Advent Children" to my mother.

Not because she doesn't understand me...

...quite the opposite, she's the Crone of the Three who would truly understand me in this world...

... but because there is so much in this movie that would just further her knowledge of where I come from. Of things I say. Of why I rejected Christianity and embraced Zen Buddism.

She's going in for some colon tests on Monday, which means she goes through a lot of pre-op things I have done many, many times. I'll take this with me when I go visit her.
Drunken posting...

In "Advent Children", they make reference to "Jenova's memetic legacy". I had been meaning to look up memetic, but just now did because, being drunk off my ass, I need all the help I can get.

There was no "memetic" at Dictionary.com, but MImetic makes perfect sense in the context. Jenova's mimics.

Yeah. That. I can run with that. Makes absolute, complete sense once you've played FF VII.
i can't be cool - senza parole
i can't be cool - senza reagire
i can't be cool - perché so già che l'indifferenza
chiude le porte dell'umanità

i can' t be cool - without speaking
i can' t be cool - without reacting
i can' t be cool - because I know that indifference already
closes the doors of humanity

Ilaria Graziano "i can't be cool"
(i'm all about the random quotes today)

Dangerous consequences will follow when politicians and rulers forget moral principles. Whether we believe in God or karma, ethics is the foundation of every religion.
-His Holiness the Dalai Lama
People are born with
People are born without
Some people have
And others want what some go without
Some people live free
Some people just want more
As for me I got all that I need
Don't got much but I got what I need

Steve Conte "Could You Bite the Hand That Feeds"

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Over in the link list is a new path to my profile over on 1UP.com, where you can giggle at how dorky I am and track what I'm playing. Enjoy. ;-)

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Try to be reasonable in the way you grow, and don't ever think it is too late. It is never too late. Even if you are going to die tomorrow, keep yourself straight and clear and be a happy human being today. If you keep your situation happy day by day, you will eventually reach the greatest happiness of enlightenment.

-Lama Thubten Yeshe, The Bliss of Inner Fire

Friday, April 28, 2006

The judge in the sentencing trial of al Qaeda conspirator Zacarias Moussaoui reminded jurors Friday to avoid looking up words in the dictionary after learning a juror went on the Internet to find out what "aggravating" means.

*headdesk* *repeatedly*
I am probably one of the last people on the planet to start watching "Buffy the Vampire Slayer". The first two episodes were good, established faces and heels, got things going that they can milk for a while. The only weirdness was that Sarah what's-her-face doesn't look 16. I can work with not acting 16, power and responsibility do that to you, but she looks 20ish.

In bad news, my old MP3 player is finally done for. I plugged it in this morning to charge it up, and when I came back it didn't think it was plugged in. I turned it on, no juice, reset it, no juice. *sigh* So, I'll spend half of tomorrow going to various electronic places and seeing if I can find a decent 20GB machine that works well with Windows Media Player for not too much money. :-p

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

So I get Advent Children on my lunch break, and I am very good and don't even touch it while I'm at work. I bring it home, and figure I'd better watch the English dub once, so I can be knowledgable in my bitching about it. ;-)

- No translation of the opening Japanese in the English version???
- Wow, they expanded Marlene's opening speech significantly. It would probably help those who have never played FF VII a little.
- Um, OK, we have stoner Yazoo...
- BOO, dead giveaway on who the wheelchair man is in Kadaj's phone conversation
- LMAO at Barnett's voice
- They nailed Reno and Rude, though, I'll give them that much
- Rufus's voice is... odd, with weird hesitations
- "Cloud, you're an ex-Soldier, aren't you?" "...In my head..." *thunk* Well FUCK, they nailed that dead on.
- Tifa sounds like she's talking around a swollen tongue
- Kadaj's voice is going to take getting used to
- There are some new shots in this version... Cloud walking through the church was completely new
- "Dilly-dall shilly-shally..." What. The. FUCK????? That has to be the shittiest translation ever.
- Yazoo's constantly giggling during fights is not helping his stoner image
- Vincent's voice is good
- "You don't have a phone?" LOL at Marlene
- Yuffie almost sounds like Rikku, although if it's the same girl from KH2 they were two seperate people
- Loz did not just say, "You meanie!" *facepalm*
- "Where can I buy a phone?" *falls out of her chair* Damn, Vincent can be funny
- Cait Sith with a strong Scottish voice is weird, but sorta appropriate
- Um, Cait Sith just told Yuffie to shut up. Twice. And he wasn't torn to shreds by Red or Yuffie. This is... incredible wrong.
- "Good to see you again..." Oh hell yeah, Superman as Sephiroth works for me, let the ass-kicking commence!
- By the end Kadaj's voice actor had gotten the hang of the character and it worked better.
- Aerith was still as cringe-inducing as she was in KH2, but she talked less here

Well, not a bad dub, but not the best, either. I'll watch the sub this evening to see how many differences in dialoge I can spot.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Ajita asked: "What is it that smothers the world and makes it so hard to see? What is it that pollutes the world and seems to threaten it?"

The Buddha answered: "It is ignorance that smothers, and it is carelessness and greed that make it invisible. The hunger of craving pollutes the world, and the pain of suffering causes the greatest fear."

Sunday, April 23, 2006

We still have 474 titles saved in your Queue. Try logging out and logging back in to see if this helps you view your full list.

Translation: CRAP! You noticed, we restored it. ;-p
Hey, if you have NetFlix, go check your queue. I was just in mine and it's missing 80 discs. :-p

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Sunday, April 16, 2006

I find the "Who I fight against" funny on very many levels, most of which only one other person on the planet would understand. ;-)

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Your Username
Your First Name
Your Superhero Last NameLifeshine
Your WeaponBow of Darkness
Your 1st SuperpowerMeta Sight [genetic sight]
Your 2nd SuperpowerMagic [Shadow]
Your WeaknessYour Past
Who You Fight AgainstFallen Angels
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Friday, April 14, 2006

Just to prove how crazy genetics can be, the follow picture is me, and my almost 14 year old neice, who is my half-sister's oldest daughter.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Opening the freezer and finding the air temperature not much different from room temperature is not a good thing... *sigh*

*heads to Lowe's to add to her debt collection*

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Well, I finished it.

The whole game is sweet, but never cloying. There's a lot of hope, and yeah, bad stuff happens and people die (*GASP* In a Disney thing?!?!?), but it's triumphant.

I didn't get the "secret" video at the end, and I think I missed one little scene during the credits since I didn't take on the optional boss. I'll definitely replay it on proud mode.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Yes, yes, I'm alive. Just been busy with work and gaming. Won't be around any more next week, have family from out of town that'll be taking up all my time.

*tiredly waves*

Monday, April 03, 2006

Adventures in training classes...

There's a woman here who has done noting but whine about how stupid some Outlook 2003 features are. Constant, mumbling whining. I sit behind her, and I'm slowly becoming tempted to throw something at her. :-p

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Coming up for air... ;-)

I've left my notes for yesterday and today in the other room, I'll try to catch up tomorrow. But I am so enjoying this game. :-)

Don't forget to spring forward!

Friday, March 31, 2006

Random note before the Random Thoughts - How did I live without owning more T. M. Revolution than I currently do, which is none? Amazing music!

Beginning of the Struggle tournament - Top of Yen Sid's Tower
- The voice for real Vivi (as opposed to Nobody as Vivi, which was fucking creepy) is a bit young. Wasn't he supposed to be 10 or so in FF IX?
- Who is this fucktard with white hair and purple eyes, and why the fuck is he calling himself Setzer Gabbiani?
- So Ansem is a Black Robed Guy. Didn't we kill him last game?
- Chrisopher Lee rules. This will likely be repeated quite frequently.
- The scene in the train, where Roxas's three friends just hold out their jewels and stare... that was weird and disturbing.
- "I don't feel like cooperating with destiny." At least they got Seifer right.
- I am so confused after all the interludes before Day 6... who are the bad guys, Organization XIII or DiZ?
- Axel is... strangely sympathetic, which just increases my confusion as to what is going on.
- Roxas gets two keyblades, and suddenly he is a SERIOUS ass-kicking machine. Holy shit, when Sora gets that this is going to completely rock!
- "It looks like my summer vacation is over." With one sentence, I'm about to cry over a character that I've only known for 3 hours.
- Why is King Mickey dressed like one of the Org XIII guys?
- I suddenly notice that Sora's grown about 6 inches and his homeboy pants are about to be Daisy Duke shorts, and I'm falling out of my chair giggling.

I played some this morning, and while I'll save the majority of my comments for tomorrow's Random Thoughts, I must say that whoever decided that Cid from FF VII needed to have a thick Texan accent is in serious need of an ass-kicking. :-p

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Random Thoughts for the first little bit playing Kingdom Hearts 2...

- Came home, fed the cats, got a snack, took some Advil in preperation for the arthritis in my hands hating me, set the inch-thick hint book within reach, and popped the game in.
- The piano music from the first one is back, although in a sadder form
- The FMV recap of the first game and a bit of "Chain of Memories" was absolutely gorgeous, and I love the song.
- Seifer!
- Nice tutorial, but I could do without the triangle-button prompt taking up the entire screen
- Um, there's computers involved now?
- Tons of references to "Chain of Memories"...
- "Chicken wuss!" Seifer called Roxas a "chicken wuss"! LOL! It's those little details I love.
- Lots more questions than answers by the end of the 3rd day
- Um, OK, who is this moron you're calling Setzer, and why is he hoisting a title belt over his head?

Unfortunately, a burning line of pain in my left shoulder made me quit after 1:17, telling me that I'm going to have to let the doctor stick his camera in there at some point. :-p Maybe after Dragon*Con...

The camera is much improved from the first, I'll say that.

More tomorrow!

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

*trying desperately to ignore the voices in my desk drawer*

I've got Kingdom Hearts 2 and the huge hint book in there... There are people begging to be scanned and sent to friends, and an absolutely gorgeous full-body shot of KH Sephiroth. If they ever make that into a figurine, I'm snapping it up as quick as I did the AC Sephiroth (even tho it has iron grey hair instead of white hair... someday I'll fix that...).

Don't panic if you don't hear from me for a while...

Monday, March 27, 2006

You know it's going to be one of those days when...

...you wake up at 4:30am and seriously debate the pros and cons of just letting your sinuses explode.

Get to work, and outside email's been down since, oh, FRIDAY AFTERNOON.

My boss is out, and there's no way I can leave just my co-worker on the help desk, so guess who's at work with a pounding sinus headache, upset stomach from 4 DayQuil in 6 hours, and a snarly attitude?

Saturday, March 25, 2006

I talk about Goldeneye being big... here's definite proof. ;-)

Friday, March 24, 2006

Critics of the legislation say Sensenbrenner is trying to deport the 11 million to 12 million people who are in the United States illegally.

And... why is that a bad thing?

"This bill would literally criminalize the Good Samaritan and probably even Jesus himself," said Sen. Hillary Clinton, D-New York.
*snort* Hillary Clinton, bringing up Jesus? That's rich...

CNN.com article

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

My co-worker the network engineer is listening to something shrilly Republican on her computer, via streaming audio.

The break room is temporary behind me, on the other side of a very thin wall, and people are practically yelling at each other.

I'm getting vertigo. :-p

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Just finished beating "Devil May Cry 3: Special Edition". The game won't win any prizes for anything ground-breaker, but fuck all if it isn't fun to shoot demons in the face every once in a while. ;-)

I find myself in the interesting position of not having anything new to play for several days. I don't have any new games at home, and won't until I go pick up "Kingdom Hearts 2" next week. Not sure what I'll do, if anything, until then. I have "Pools of Radiance: Ruins of Myth Drannor" on my computer, and that can easily occupy my spare time when I'm not playing on Aardwolf.

Part of me, though, almost wants to start the ".hack" series again, especially since downloading the soundtrack recently. We'll see. The reviews I've seen indicate that KH2 is quite long, and I'd rather not start one game and then put it to the side for a few months.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Does anyone know a better online translator for Italian to English than Babelfish? I ran the following song through it and got a steaming pile of shit back. :-p

"i can't be cool" by Yoko Kanno

non credi che sia il momento di capire?
decidere di non restare immobili?
senti le voci che vendono ricchezze vane,
l'inganno del potere che consumerà l'ara...

i can't be cool tra le catene
i can't be cool ad occhi chiusi
i can't be cool sotto i resti di un sonno profondo
fatto di guerre in nome di dio

tu pensi di possedere la tua vida
sotto il controllo di uomini avidi?
senti le voci che vogliono trovare pace
sono oscurate dai potenti sovrani del buio

i can't be cool senza parole
i can't be cool senza reagire
i can't be cool perché so già che l'indifferenza
chiude le porte dell'umanità

i can't be cool tra le catene
i can't be cool ad occhi chiusi
i can't be cool sotto i resti di un sonno profondo
fatto di guerre in nome di dio

i can't be cool tra le catene
i can't be cool ad occhi chiusi
i can't be cool sotto i resti di un mondo sommerso
dalle violenze dell'umanità

i can't be cool tra le catene
i can't be cool senza reagire
i can't be cool perché so già che l'indifferenza
chiude le porte dell'umanità

se vorrai un'altra realtà
avrai il dono più grande
sarà la tua libertà

Friday, March 17, 2006

"I... I won't become a memory..."

6 weeks until Advent Children...

I'm still grinning a very familiar grin at the thought of Superman from the cartoon Justice League doing Sephi's english voice. ;-)

Friday, March 10, 2006

Well, I've apparently been worrying over nothing because some dumb bitch in my doctor's office thinks that OR means AND.

Possible rotator cuff tear OR severe tendonitis.

Since the pain's mostly gone and I have full range of motion, guess which one I really have?

And the orthopedist didn't have the MRI results, the x-rays, nothing from my doctor.

I am mad.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

I am magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
And I live the envelope pushed far enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to serve
Destined to roam


I now have a theme for a Kingdom Hearts fic...

Yes, I'm pitiful. ;-)

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Doctor's office calls back, I see the orthopedist this Friday at 9:15am.

Me: Wow, that's fast, should I be worried?
Nurse: Well, they did tell you it there was a partial tear, right?

Um, no?

Um, fuck?

In good news, I have a nice fat bonus check in my purse, that'll pay off 4 or 5 things, and a small but OK pay raise.
Just heard back from the doctor... I have a rotator cuff "problem" (might be a small tear, might just be fraying), and severe tendonitis. He's forwarding me on to an orthopedic specialist.
Another one for the "WTF is our government doing" file...

Couple trying to pay off a credit card bill get checked out by Homeland Security

And don't get me started on the South Dakota shit.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

It's like I just told my Dad... I'm fine until I start moving around. If I just lay in bed, I'm mostly OK, unless I turn or move wrong. If I sit in a chair, I'm OK until I try typing.

Which is, of course, absolutely no way to live.

I have overtime to go into at work today, and I'm experimenting with just taking half a Vicodin. I'm not driving, don't worry. We'll see how that goes.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Less pain this morning. I feel like I would actually want to take a deep breath. Hope the MRI shows something, because this is not something I care to repeat any time soon.

Looked at my car loan and realized that by April of next year, I will have that baby paid off. I will then proceed to drive it into the ground (but it loves me and won't hold it against me) for a few years, then get a hybrid something.

Brad, wasn't ignoring you. :-) We belonged to the Evangelical Lutheran Church of America, which the Missouri Synod delcined to join back in the mid-80's. Ya'll don't do female pastors, and the ELCA in SC doesn't do female pastors well.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Saw the doctor at 10:45 yesterday. He, being a very wonderful doctor, agreed that I was obviously in pain, listened to the history of that shoulder, and decided to start with an x-ray.

Holding my left arm down by my side with my palm facing out hurt pretty good, but it got a good picture. He called me out to show it to me, and it seems that the ball of my left shoulder is higher in the joint than it really should be, and that there's definitely signs of arthritis in the joint. So he orders an MRI, which I get scheduled for later on the same day.

I have had an MRI before, so I thought I knew what I was getting in to. The one for my lower back pain was uncomfortable, but nothing bad, so I figured I'd be OK.

Um, no.

Remember, I said above that turning my arm hurt my shoulder. I had to lay on my back, shoulder held rigid in place, with my arm straight out by my side, for about 20 minutes. I am certain there is something wrong in there, because the pain was very nearly unbearable. When they finally pulled me out and sat me up, I literally could not breathe for pain. I carefully got dressed, went up to the hospital lobby, and called my local Knight in Shining Armor, aka Dad. There was absolutely no way I was driving my stick shift home.

He came and got me within 10 minutes, bought the Vicodin at the Bi-Lo for me, took me home, fed my cats, started my dishwasher, and took out the trash. I took 1 pill about 6pm, another a little after 7pm, then 2 at 10:30pm when I thought I was going to scream.

I'm back to regular pain now, so at least I feel like I can go to work. Why work? Because I started January 1 with 80 hours of sick leave, and now only have 8 hours left. :-p Besides, someone has to do the work...

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I'm going to call the doctor about pain today...

13 years ago (almost exactly), I was run off the road by a logging truck and wrapped my 2 week old used car around a tree. In the process of trying to get out, I used my left shoulder as a battering ram to try to force open the driver's side door. By the time I got to the hospital, I was in a ton of pain. But my Mom was a pastor with shitty insurance (thank you, Lutheran church), and since it wouldn't pay for crap, they did a quick x-ray, saw nothing broken, and sent me home to take 1200mg of advil evey 4 hours so I could breathe.

Over the years the pain would flare up, but usually go away after a few hours. This time it's been constant since Monday. Also, if you push on the end of my collar bone on that side, the pinky and ring finger on my left hand tingle. And the left shoulder is noticably higher than the right one. And the pain is excruciating.

As Dawn rightly pointed out to me, I have already met all my maxes for health insurance, so why not get it looked at? Maybe it won't need surgery, just physical therapy. All I know is that I'm past the pain I'm willing to live with, so now I get to do something about it.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

In celebration of having a little less money stress...

*drunkenly humming along with Cowboy Bebop music
Well, some good financial news for a change... the hospital finally realized they'd overcharged me last year, knocking about $750 off of that bill.

My taxes all got deposited, so I've almost paid off the tree people.

I had an excellent review this week, so I should be getting a bonus and a pay raise next week.

I'll also have a traveling reimbursement check come in Monday or Tuesday.

So... *phew*

Thursday, February 23, 2006

And so it begins...

This country is so fucked. *sigh* 2008 can't come fast enough.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Money woes...

I owe the hospital another $2000, which makes the total now $5400.

I owe Dr. Albert $800.

I owe the tree service $600.

*sighs* I probably won't be able to afford to go to Dragon*Con this year. Or anywhere else, for that matter.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Sony Pictures Home Entertainment have announced the Region 1 DVD release of Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children for 25th April 2006 priced at $26.96 SRP. Advent Children continues the game’s storyline in this CG-animated film, featuring non-stop action and exciting visual effects. Two years have passed since the ruins of Midgar stand as a testament to the sacrifices made in order to bring peace. However, the world will soon face a new menace. A mysterious illness is spreading fast. Old enemies are astir. And Cloud (Burton), who walked away from the life of a hero to live in solitude, must step forward yet again...

Backed by a full team of video game extraordinaires, the film was directed by Tetsuya Nomura and Takeshi Nozue, written by Kazushige Nojima and produced by Shinji Hashimoto and Yoshinori Kitase.

Steve Burton, Rachel Leigh Cook and Mena Suvari lend their voices to the English dub available on this two-disc special edition with the following extra features:
Story Digest
Deleted Scenes
“Making Of” Featurette
FINAL FANTASY VII: Advent Children Venice Film Festival Footage
“Sneak Peek” of the Upcoming FINAL FANTASY VII Games

FINALLY! Damn well better have a sub-titled track...

Sunday, February 12, 2006

With the news that VP Dick shot a guy while hunting, I saw this and had to post it...

Saturday, February 11, 2006

*drunkenly headbanging with Sephiroth*
*drunkenly dancing with Kadaj*
(More drunken ramblings. Ya'll're in for a long night. *evil grin*)

Emerson, Lake, and Palmer do "Knife Edge" live Also not for dial-ups, sorry.

Emerson, Lake, and Palmer have been a part of my life "From the Beginning". ;-) My Dad is a huge ELP fan, and passed that on to me.

"Can you live on a knife-edge?"

"Our machines feed the furnace / If they take us / They will burn us"

These men are geniuses of music and lyrics. Especially Emerson, he could take a Moog and turn it into a holy instrument of music. Just fucking incredible. What makes this clip even more unbelievable is that Emerson spends half the time not even looking at his keyboard, but at the drummer, Palmer, so he can keep up with the insidiously increasing tempo.
(drunken ramblings, ahoy!)

DJ scratch battle Completely not dial-up friendly.

OK. Why the above is so down for me. In 1987, my family moved from Atlanta, GA, where Mom worked for the IRS, to Columbia, SC, where Mom went to the Lutheran Theological Southern Seminary and Dad made $8 an hour as a piano tuner. So yeah, we were poor as hell, and yeah, I know what it's like to be poor, to the point where the local Lutheran church left groceries on our porch from time to time.

Anyways, I went to Heyward Gibbes Middle School, and I was the only white girl in my class during 7th and 8th grade, aka from 12 to 13 1/2 years old. Pretty formative, important years, no? I absorbed the music, the early hip-hop, the soul, and the DJ music. To this day, if you want me to mark out and lose it completely, you play shit like in the link above.
OK, so far I've gotten these done...

2/3rds of #1, (I'll do the last load in the morning, when I can put more regulars in it to make a full load), #2 - #9, #12, and #14 (all to the tree people, should pay them off completely).

So... (cracks open #9) ;-)
Ah, the weekend... here's my plans:

1) Do 3 loads of laundry
2) Run the dishwasher
3) Do my taxes
4) Help Dad with his home networking project
5) Go to a day spa/buy this crap party at my sister's house
6) Do the grocery shopping
7) Get stamps
8) Get cat food
9) Buy some alcohol, preferably Ketel One vodka
10) Watch the Pro Bowl (go NFC!)
11) Watch a NetFlix dvd or two
12) Change the filter on the air system
13) Sort through about 600MB of new music
14) Decide how to divvy up the tax money among my creditors

What, you think the weekends are for relaxing? :-p

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

From Dawn's LiveJournal...

If there is someone on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because she exists, and whom you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

That would be... just about all of ya'll. ;-) I might have met Janice without the Internet, since we live in the same state and went to the same wrestling shows, but maybe not.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Ten Top Trivia Tips about JL Sigman!

  1. It is bad luck to walk under JL Sigman!
  2. If you blow out all the candles on JL Sigman with one breath, your wish will come true!
  3. The pharoahs of ancient Egypt wore garments made with thin threads of beaten JL Sigman.
  4. The average human spends about 30 days during their life in JL Sigman.
  5. The Aztec Indians of Mexico believed JL Sigman would protect them from physical harm, and so warriors used her to decorate their battle shields!
  6. Thirty-five percent of the people who use personal ads for dating are JL Sigman.
  7. Devoid of her cells and proteins, JL Sigman has the same chemical makeup as sea water.
  8. White chocolate isn't technically chocolate, because it doesn't contain JL Sigman!
  9. The condom - originally made from JL Sigman - was invented in the early 1500s.
  10. JL Sigman has three eyelids.
I am interested in - do tell me about


Monday, February 06, 2006

Saw the surgeon today for a check-up, and he said, "Wow, you heal fast." He looked around, said, "Get out of here, and stop taking the antibiotics." So I left. ;-)

Story of the day: Girl beats the guys for high school wrestling championship.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

"You're meat to be wasted. Your blood will fall on rock and nourish nothing."
Cutter, ElfQuest

Homophobic asshole dies from gunshot wounds received while attempting to avoid capture.

Friday, February 03, 2006

Just got my last EOB's for 2005, and thought I'd mention that the insurance company paid out $22,753.08 for me last year. :-p

Also, got the last of the statements I need to do my taxes... gotta go get TurboTax and get to it. Got freakin' bills to pay...

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Adventures in work...

Co-worker: I can't find ***'s Adobe.
Me: Did you look in the file cabinet?
Co-worker: I looked through the stack on Chip's desk.
Me: Did you look in the file cabinet?
Co-worker: Can you look up a licence number, I'll just use another disk.
Me: Chip keeps all the Adobe CDs in the file cabinet, did you look there?

Guess where he found the CD?


Wednesday, February 01, 2006

The Office 2003 version of Photo Editor, now called Office Picture Manager, blows dead goats. Just thought I'd post that observation.

*back to trying to wrangle some simple screenshots for a work document*

Monday, January 30, 2006

Back at work. I guess they actually managed OK, there were only 15 overdue tickets in my queue...

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Ah, home. With a newly stocked kitchen and cleaned out cat pans, to boot.

I know I need to spend some quality time with FF VI, and my NetFlix DVDs. So I may not be online much, and slow to answer email.

Friday, January 27, 2006

I'll be OK.

The vascular surgeon says that the site will be OK with antibiotics, it doesn't need to be cut open and drained.


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Because I cannot do anything simple...

I have either a staph or a strep infection in my vein under where the IV is. I'm on 2000mg of Keflex a day, got a shot in the ass, and see a vascular surgeon Thursday afternoon.


Monday, January 23, 2006

I am out of the hospital now. I'll be splitting my time between here and Mom's for a little while, probably there rest of the week. I've got about 2 dozen staples in my gut, and of course both IV sites are giving me hell.

But he found the problem. There was a hole in the bottom of the pouch, and he fixed it. He also found a loops of bowel adhesed to the pouch itself, but since it didn't seem to be causing me any problems, he didn't mess with it beyond a very careful nicking of the adhesian holding it on there.

I'm OK. I'm on a liquid diet until the staples come out Thursday, but I'll be OK.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Be leaving in a bit. See ya'll in a few days.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

There is much whirring of chainsaws and occasional big thumps from the back yard. Kahvi is about to stress herself into a fit.

Me? I'm just not looking. The curtains on the back french doors are closed. Sometimes, like George Michael once sang, "I gotta have faith".
A miracle has occured: the tree people don't want any money today. They'll send an invoice in a week or so.

*collapses in relief*

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

The tree people will be back in the morning. They will then want money. Like, oh, $750.

I think I have $300. *sigh*

The condemned woman's off to get her last meal. :-p
OK, my insurance agent bullied the insurance company into giving me money, and the third tree service I called is out here tying the tree to some of the other ones to keep it from falling, until they decide exactly how the get rid of it.

I'll put some pictures up later.

Also gave about 7 vials of blood to the hospital to run their tests on.

Maybe I should eat something?

Guess who's home insurance company doesn't want to pay for the tree?
OK, so this tree is leaning against another tree that's smaller and not so stable, and it'll take a crane to get the broken tree out without wiping out the back half of my house.

I'm at home. Dad's on the way over to move some things (like this computer) into the other part of the house.

And did I mention I'm having surgery Friday?

*mental breakdown*

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

As if I needed more stress in my life...

One of my pine trees is breaking off about 4 feet from the ground, and will take out my fence if/when it falls. Considering they're predicting 55MPH wind gusts...
OK, I'm pulling the fire alarm again.

10am Friday, I'm having surgery. This thing has leaked greenish goop since Saturday, so something must be feeding it. We'll see what happens from there.

Sunday, January 15, 2006

No, things are not improving rapidly. I'm still leaking pus out of the thing. I think I'll probably still need surgery.

Your Gemstone is Emerald

Balanced, liberated, and peaceful.
You bring luck into any situation.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

I find I'm beating myself up over this, like it's my fault or something. Which is stupid, I know, but still. I almost didn't want to come to work.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Um, change of plan.

The abcess burst through the hole that had been created when they drained it in the hospital a couple of weeks ago, so no surgery. For now.

Sorry. :-(



I'll be in surgery Friday at 11am.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

My brother-in-law Paul was diagnosed with cancer some time last year, or maybe late 2004. He'd been having treatments and seemed to be OK.

It's gone into his liver.

Sometime in April, either we'll all go up to New York, or they'll all come down here to visit.

Of course, the question starts to become "What will happen to Heather if he dies?" She was brain damaged in an accident years ago and cannot work or drive.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Somdays, you give the world fair warning.

Other days, you put on your Meteor-casting outfit and hope that someone doesn't get out of the way.


In a mood, but in a good way. Got things to do, people to make go, "WTF is she?", etc.
Sleeping in is nice.

Waking up to get coffee from a kitchen that actually has space now to be a kitchen because I've put things away and gotten rid of things I don't need is very nice.

Next up: the home office.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

I don't need surgery.

I don't need surgery.

I'm still trying to wrap my brain around this. It's about frozen in shock. I had gotten so used to the idea that I would need it, that the fact that I don't is nearly incomprehensible.

I'm at home. I can't carry on a conversation, much less trouble-shoot a computer problem, right now.

Dad, who understands better than most, said, "Do something nice and distracting for yourself." I will have to ponder this.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Tomorrow at 9:30am I talk with the surgeon about surgery.


Sunday, January 01, 2006

*shows 2005 the door*

*slams it shut*

Get you gone, and take your bad luck and crap with you!