**How can you care?** 'Because I choose to.' **You make it sound so simple.** 'That's because it is simple. Hard sometimes, but simple.'

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

See the ThinkGeek banner up top? Buy stuff from them through that link, and I eventually get a very small kickback. Feel free to support your local sick psycho wrestling-fan chick type person. ;-)
Just for reference, here's the 20 songs from yesterday. Who knows, I may do it again today. ;-)

1) "Give a Man a Fish", Arrested Development, 3 Years, 5 Months and 2 Days in the Life Of...
2) "Seven Bridges Road", the Eagles
3) "King of Pain", the Police
4) "Time Will Tell", the Black Crowes, The Southern Harmony And Music Companion
5) "Sirius", the Alan Parsons Project
6) "Where the River Goes", Stone Temple Pilots, Core
7) "Higher", Creed, Human Clay
8) "Another Day in Paradise", Phil Collins, ...But Seriously
9) "Close to Home", Emerson Lake & Palmer, Black Moon
10) "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For", U2, The Joshua Tree
11) "Hard to Handle", the Black Crowes, Shake Your Money Maker
12) "Piece of My Heart", Janis Joplin
13) "I'd Do Anything For Love (But I Won't Do That)", Meatloaf, Bat Out of Hell 2: Back Into Hell
14) "Streets of Philadelphia", Bruce Springsteen, Philadelphia
15) "California Dreaming", the Mamas and the Papas
16) "Been Caught Stealing", Jane's Addiction, Ritual de lo Habitual
17) "I Don't Wanna Know", Phil Collins, No Jacket Required
18) "Would I Lie to You", Eurythmics
19) "Self Control", Laura Branigan
20) "Lead Me On", Teena Marie, Top Gun

Monday, May 03, 2004

OB/GYN appointments suck. They're painful. But I don't dare skip them, not since I had a bad pap 6 years ago and ended up needing the bad cells frozen off.

On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing), and write down your favorite line of the song. (stolen from Tam)
1) "Lately I've been in a life-locked limbo / Looking out of this smudged-up window"
2) "There are stars in the Southern Sky / And if ever you decide you should go / There is a time-sweetened honey / Down the Seven Bridges Road"
3) "There's a little black spot on the sun today / It's the same old thing as yesterday"
4) "Only time will tell / You think you're in heaven / But you're living in Hell"
5) (instrumental song)
6) "Some things never seem to change"
7) "Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time / Said up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams and make them mine"
8) "He can see that she's been there / Probably been moved out from every place / 'Cause she didn't fit in there"
9) (another instrumental)
10) "I believe in Kingdom Come / When all the colors will bleed into one"
11) " 'Cause, Momma, I'm hard to handle, now"
12) "Well, I'm gonna show you, baby / That a woman can be tough"
13) "But I'll never stop dreaming of you every night of my life"
14) "At night I hear the blood in my veins / Just as black and whispery as the rain"
15) "I got down on my knees / And I pretend to pray"
16) Hmmm... this one I don't listen to the lyrics so much as the bounse-y beat
17) "It's over / Oh yes, it's all over / And it's been a long time coming / Some say it's too long"
18) "I've packed my bags / Cleaned the floor / Watch me walking / Walking out the door"
19) "In the day / Nothing matters / It's the night time that matters"
20) "Turn around and see you in a crowded place / Watch for the emotions on a gaurded face"

Friday, April 30, 2004

So I'm noodling around Chudah's Corner, looking for the "Suteki da ne?" lyrics. Found those, messed around some more. Found a translation of "Liberi Fatali", from FF VIII. Damn, they rock... proves just what a genius Uematsu is.

Liberi Fatali , english translation, Nobuo Uematsu
Wake from your sleep, my children
You're childhood years are gone
Wake from your sleep, my children
Your rest is gone

Arise
Search
Go to the true garden
The garden of spring's truth

With fiery truth
Burn the evils of the world
With fiery truth
Light the darkness of the world

Farewell, children
The day has died
Grrr, I forgot how much I hate working with this gold thread.

But I'm out of books at the moment, and this thing needs to be done and framed by June, so I'd better buckle down and do it.
People to call:

1) OB/GYN, to get Depo prescription before Monday
2) Dr. Stohecker, since his office completely fubar'd the insurance filing
3) Baptist hospital, to set up the pre-surgery stuff
4) PAI, to find out how to tell these idiots to file the insurance right so it goes to PAI, and not to my defunct state health plan

Thursday, April 29, 2004

I'm pre-registering for the surgery.

"You'll need to bring a $400 deposit for the surgery."

EXCUSE FUCKING ME???

I won't bring it. That's what my insurance is for, especially since I hit my deductable in January.

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Oh, duh, the AC.

There's a leak in it. A part of it is rusted under the house. It's 20+ years old. I need a new one.

I told them I did not have $4,000 lying around the replace the whole system, so they shot it full of freon and took my $235.
Surgery will be Wednesday, May 19th, at 2pm.

Call me crazy (yes, I'm looking at you, Lopez), but I'm looking forward to this. One way or another, all the pain and crap I've been through since late December will be over.

Monday, April 26, 2004

.8 miles in 15 minutes. Go me!

AC at home is broken. More money.

Surgeon calls on Sunday. *wuv surgeon* Says that he talked to a second radiologist on Saturday *more wuv for surgeon* and that what the first radiologist thought was a fistula isn't.

Saturday, April 24, 2004

Not having good times right now. :-p

I'm looking at what's ahead in FF X-2, and I may have to start over again. The guide I have says you need to be about level 65 to hit the Farplane. I'm about 20 levels below that. :-p

Ever wanted to spend a whole day drunk? I did that once in college... drank vodka and did vodka jello shooters and basically stayed out of my skull the whole Saturday. One girl told me to my face I was beautiful in that condition.

Lord knows I'm not feeling beautiful now, with this damn fistula giving me 9 kinds of hell because of the fistulagram.

I'm also gaining some weight. Which is worrying me a little.

Any comments about that not being a problem will get you smacked.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Because I can't do anything half-way...

They think they saw TWO fistulas. One behind the valve (that's the one we knew about), and another on the other end of the pouch, looks like up by where it connects to the small intestine (the fuck that come from???).

More when I hear from the surgeon...

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Some magazine I've never heard of puts out a 50 worst songs list

Some of them I can understand. But please explain to me why the fuck "The Sound of Silence" by Simon and Garfunkle is on that list?!?!?

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Every tried to read The Silmarillion? I have. Painful.

Here is a much better version

Monday, April 19, 2004

Well, there HAD been a Quizilla thing here... but the pic refuses to show. So to hell with it.
My boss: Do you want some overtime?
Me (thinking): Is the sky blue?

My co-worker is out because of a ceiling leak. Considering I'll probably miss most - if not all - of Thurseday, I'll take what I can get.

Need more books tho... I went through 518 pages of The Amber Spyglass in less than 8 hours...
Duke's cutting 8am classes to help sleep deprived students.

Bah. Wimps. The students need to learn that can't party all the time. A few F's for not showing up will learn them.
No offense, but what kind of irony is it when the CEO of McDonald's dies unexpectedly of a heart attack?

Friday, April 16, 2004

The surgeon got the films yesterday, and of course they're useless to him.

More tests Thurseday.

Thursday, April 15, 2004

I'm going shooting with my boss again today. Sounds like a great way to release stress. He also said something about there "being a crowd". I think he's been bragging on me, or something. That, or everyone who's seen the target up in my office wants to see if it was really me shooting. ;-)

edited to add PS: Yes, I know, I promised pictures. Mom got a free digital camera when Dad got his new laptop, and it's at my house. I just need to break out of this funk and do something with it.